ImperfectionisBeauty Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 I know this probably seems like them most idiotic question ever but I want to start keeping a journal of my feelings. I was looking at my old questions and I see why I piss a lot of people off, I just jump from one thing to another and in really emotionally effected my things going on in my life so I just take it out on whoever I can. I go from like 0 to 10 then I have to go back and like apologize for totally freaking out... And I hate apologizing grr! I personally know what's going on because I live it but posting on here is hard because I am making a topic and then replying and I have different emotions about the topic. For example I was looking at my post about netting the guy I the hotel and I was so proud of myself when I said I was going to ignore him then a week later I did it with him now I am saying I will not do anything like that again and I mean it but then I just talked to my friend and she's telling me about her fun night making out with hotties and I'm like "crap! I wanna make out with someone" so I think about hooking up with mr hotel. It's just a super crazy emotional thing I have. I want to journal but I don't know what to write or how often what if its stupid? I know that only ill be reading it but what if I look back and read it and I'm like wow I'm stupid. I'm trying to commit myself to improving so I can meet a guy and get married and have babies maybe not super soon but in like 4 years?? I feel like all my issues are the same it'll just be me writing about how sad I am to be single. Or how much I wanna get pregnant or how much I miss my ex... It'll be boring and dumb. I don't know how it will help me? Link to post Share on other sites
SmileFace Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 I personally don't do journals. Since I like the idea of people responding and giving me feedback - my threads aren't usually popular but I have got some great advice. I like that I am able to go back and read a thread I posted; to see the mind set I was in last year. Believe me I reread my threads all the time and think Wtf but its good to be able to reflect and see the progress. Journal how you like - I like the publicness of ls since I will be held accountable for what say. Just start a journal and see what works for you. Link to post Share on other sites
SmileFace Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 Smile Face does give good advice. When I lost a ton of weight. I was journaling left and right. What I ate, when, how much, what exercises I did. How I was feeling. The feelign of wanting to quit. The feeling of hitting a dead end. Going back and reading my emotional rollercoaster was inspriational because I accomplished a goal I set. And it gave me insight on how i changed as a person. Exactly... My weight loss, every emotion is documented somewhere. It helped me get by. Link to post Share on other sites
SmileFace Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 Yeah I just feel that some emotions I wouldn't put on blast here on Loveshack not that I am ashamed, but like Ricky Martin's song "Private Emotions". Plus there is a small population of posters who would have a field day if I really got emotional. Lol, I wasn't referring to ls. I share enough here, lol. Ls just helps me reflect. Link to post Share on other sites
Author ImperfectionisBeauty Posted October 21, 2012 Author Share Posted October 21, 2012 And you are some hell of a reflector. Did the OP disappear? I'm here sorry I'm going to buy a cute little journal and try it out. Maybe I can use it and take it to my therapist. Link to post Share on other sites
Author ImperfectionisBeauty Posted October 21, 2012 Author Share Posted October 21, 2012 I actually call my ranting writing online my Online Therapist. Make a list of topics you want to talk about and hand them to her. She can discuss them one by one. Your hotel incident, your wanting to get pregnant, anything else you feel. We have talked about the hotel incident , we have kind of put that to bed. I'm really confused about therapy and the point of it. I don't feel like I am progressing. I was like expecting more you know? (I don't know if you have ever been in therapy) but I was just expecting her to talk to me and kind of hear how I talk about things and give me a lot of advice and help and she is helpful and I like her a lot but it just wasn't what I expected, there is no clear plan for what needs improving. I only go 2 times a month because I never have anything to say, even though I can come on here and say a ton haha Link to post Share on other sites
carhill Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 Though not contributed much to recently, my 'journals' here reflected personal thoughts often elicited by discussion threads on topics relevant to my life at the time. I find them, and various comments given, to be great signposts of the journey of life and how growth and change has come over time. LS has been a great tool in the realm of journal writing, for myself. Link to post Share on other sites
veggirl Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 I tried journaling recently to get my thoughts organized / on paper and out of my head. It was okay...I was typing in a word doc and then started crying so I went to bed and left it open but unsaved. When I got up in the morning, my computer had randomly restarted itself so it was gone. I took that as a sign, journaling is not for me I think it's a great idea though...perhaps I did it wrong, lol. Link to post Share on other sites
carhill Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 Another, albeit incidental, 'journal' which can combat 'lost' thoughts from computer issues is using the auto-draft feature of mail programs like Yahoo to save undirected thoughts. I simply start typing out an e-mail as if I were going to send it to someone, the system auto-saving it as a draft and, if the computer fails or I lose attention and move on, the draft remains in that folder, available for future reading. I've found some fascinating drafts from years past that I had completely forgotten about. Very instructive as signposts, IMO, for self-reflection. That's one solution I stumbled across by accident. Link to post Share on other sites
Eve Posted October 21, 2012 Share Posted October 21, 2012 I journal a lot but my journal is part of my prayer life. Looking back on things prayed for is simply too amazing for words.. Overall I go with the idea that it is good to have an aid whilst journalling and most recently I found this book interesting - http://www.amazon.co.uk/Magic-Rhonda-Byrne/dp/1849838399 It is the third part of 'The Secret' series. I gave it to my eldest daughter as I think it was meant for her; just finished Uni and needed some direction. It is a 28 day thing but you can carry on some of the tasks as part of your daily spiritual practice thereafter. Another useful guide to have whilst journalling is 'You are not the target'. You Are Not The Target. Recipes For Living And Loving, With A Foreword By Her Husband, Aldous Huxley.: Amazon.co.uk: Aldous Huxley Laura Archera Huxley: Books As it turned out my daughter had picked up a first edition copy, so we essentially swopped books! The Magic, gave her some serious direction and there seems to now be a definite match between her daily aims in life and what she journals. But that is if you are looking for a spiritual dynamic to your journal. These books are excellent in that regard. Take care, Eve x Link to post Share on other sites
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