Thinking too much into something?

[sunshinemandy]

Hello. I'll try to make this brief.

 

So my boyfriend is currently on deployment, and comes home in a couple weeks.

 

A couple of months ago was a stressful time with the both of us. I had a lot of overtime at work, and he worked long days too. We started to Skype less and less, and whenever we did Skype it was very brief. At first we had skyped a lot. Anyway. He befriended a new person in the unit who worked with him who is a female. No biggie. Whenever he would talk about going out into town he would always mention her in the group. No biggie. During our time of talking less on Skype or missed Skype "dates" I started to get a weird feeling so a couple weeks later I confronted him and he said nothing was going on and even let me view his facebook and email to prove it. There was nothing in his inbox so I checked his archive folder, and there were the messages between them. Most people delete facebook messages thinking that they are deleted forever, but it would actually archive if you just hit the X. Anyway. So I was upset that he attempted to delete the messages. I read the messages which covered almost a month, and they weren't explicit or anything. They were mostly friendly, and a little flirting. It appeared to me that he had a crush on her and was trying to get to know her more by always inviting her out and keep the messages going.

 

So I confront him, and he said that he didn't try to delete any messages and I told him where I found them. Then of course I confronted her via Facebook. I know...bad manners I guess, but I had to know her side. She said that nothing was going on at all, and that he loved me and talked about me all the time. So I said ok, and let it go. A couple mutual friends in the unit said that they noticed that her and my boyfriend hung out a lot and seemed kinda close, but never said anything to me because they didn't want to start something that they weren't sure about.

 

So anyway. My boyfriend and I worked things out despite my funny feelings I had about it. I couldn't tell if it was paranoia or instinct. I know that fear can cloud judgement sometimes. Last month I thought of that situation again and the funny feeling in my stomach happened again, but I told myself to have faith and not be paranoid. Then I felt bad for accusing the girl through facebook for being involved with my boyfriend, and I knew that I would see her again when they come home and I didn't want any weird feelings so I wrote to her again on facebook apologizing to her for what I said before, and that I basically wanted to bury the hatchet and that I did not have any ill feelings towards her. She's currently dating another guy in the unit that is a friend to my boyfriend so if they ever hung out I would not want us to feel weird about each other. She never responded to the apology message so I assumed that she just wanted to put it in the past. I was ok with that and then a few days later I thought that maybe she did not respond because she was somehow involved with my boyfriend...? Am I thinking way too much into this? I want to enjoy my boyfriend being home when he gets back, but those funny feelings in my stomach keep coming back sometimes. Is it because I keep remembering that while we were fighting months ago that he turned to her as someone to hang out with?

 

Thank you in advance.