what to do when you dont know what to do but you know what you want to do

[swtnsxy20041]

I just dont know what to do. He says he wants to be with me, but why are we not together? I love him so much I did not know that I would be able to love someone this much. I want to be with him but we are both married and I wonder if it is worth all the hurt that will be brought upon all the innocent people involved. I think of how everyone will be effected and I get confused cause I want to be with him but I dont want to hurt anyone. I know he loves me by the way he looks, kisses and touches me. Am I just kidding myself. I am so tired of sneaking around. Should I just break it off before it gets any worse? I am so good at giving advice but when it comes to me I am clueless........

[Fayebelle]

Couldn't this also be titled-

 

What to do when you know what you should do but you don't want to do it?

[Forever]

I am going through this same relationship the same hell & confusion. I don't know what happen but just woke up one day & said I can't take this anymore. I have broke off communication to sort out what is going on in my life. And as I take the time I am realizing this may not be what I always thought it should or will be.

 

I suggest to take some time away - you can do it & stand back look at what you are putting yourself through. I don't think we realize how much we are asking of ourselves to live this life.

 

I have read lots of other peoples situation & makes me see that maybe I was wrong all along & have been being used. I thought what we had was different & had compassion for his situation having children. But, since I never discussed this with anyone I never realized this may not be real. I have waited & worked with MM for all these years & what do I want? I am in a situation to move on and make the best of a relationship with my husband or continue this hell that I'm afraid I'll wake up one day & have no one. Afraid what all these years of holding it in to myself might lead me.

 

I'm not wanting to leave my husband because I'm unhappy with HIM - I am in Love with this other man for all my life & we would hurt way too many innocent people if we broke up each other & became one in ourselves.

 

So my question is when will I become concerned with myself and how this affair is affecting ME. Let me know how you feel - I understand & travel this road too. But sounds like we are both at a cross road & may help each other make the right decision & whats best for US!