riot_chick Posted November 3, 2012 Share Posted November 3, 2012 this year has been really bad to say the least. I went thru a really bad breakup at the beginning of the year with a guy that i was beginning to fall in love with. he pretty much just said that he didnt wanna be involved with drama that i was having with my ex. since then,me and this guy have talked and were still pretty close but havent tried getting back together or even seen eachother since february (which in turn makes me pretty sad) but honestly,i wish that was the only thing i had to be sad about. my life is just full of dead ends and tragedy it seems like. im 22 years old and im not living my life,instead im sulking in my misery as im alone every day in my house. see,i had big plans and dreams for this year but it all blew up in my face. i applied at this program that helps people get jobs and they were very insensitive to the fact that ive never worked so they just kinda gave up on trying to find me a job. i have really bad depression that makes looking for a job almost impossible for me so it was a really big slap in the face when this company just gave up on me then on top of that i flunked out of school for the second semester in a row and i dont even know why,everything just became so overwhelming so i dropped out and was just kinda hoping to enjoy the summer and then get back on my feet,well here i am in November..almost the end of the year,and i have no boyfriend,no job,no friends,and a bad school record and if thats not bad enough,the friends that i did have decided to steal $250 from me after i was nothing but kind to them. i had taken these 3 people out to dinner and the next thing i know is they robbed me blind while all this was going on,my grandma had been diagnosed wit cancer. i thought i had a good support system and was trying to keep my head up. i had began dating this guy named andrew. i met him online and i thought he was everything i needed. boy was i wrong!! we met in person for the first time after talking for a month and a half. he ended up being a drunk mess and he was cold and distant in person. when i confronted him about it,he said he didnt want a relationship!! I was so hurt and shocked and since then he has made little to no contact with me and i recently found out that he was engaged to some girl!! talk about heartbreaking im pretty much over this guy cuz i realized that all he was doing was playing with me but i cant help but be angry n bitter over the fact that hes happily engaged to some girl and im still the same lonely and sad person that i have been for the last 2 years. this has obviously been the worst year ever for me and not having barely any friends makes me feel even more like crap. ive literally lost my grip on life and i just dont know what to do anymore Link to post Share on other sites
aMguilts Posted November 3, 2012 Share Posted November 3, 2012 (edited) hi riot_chick . Wow what a rough year you had! Seems like it`s been one thing after another? This can escalate your depression and make everthing, even getting dressed when you awake, such a foreboding task? Are you getting help with your depression? I believe this is the 1st thing you should tackle. Once you srart feeling a bit better about yourself you will find the other worries in your life a bit more easier to manage. Big hugs aM Edited November 3, 2012 by aMguilts Link to post Share on other sites
Author riot_chick Posted November 4, 2012 Author Share Posted November 4, 2012 well i started seeing a psychiatrist but i dont know how much hes really helping me :/ thanks for replying tho. i just really dont wanna be depressed anymore. Link to post Share on other sites
cloudatlas Posted November 4, 2012 Share Posted November 4, 2012 Okay, here's my hand at some advice. It's good you're going to therapy, if anything that gives you someone to talk too - who shouldn't express judgements. Secondly, I'm thinking maybe you should start small, it seems like you feel as though you're out of control of your life. Try getting into a routine, such as waking up and going to sleep at the same time, making your own meals each morning and evening. Thirdly, go and volunteer somewhere. Like your local library, maybe? A day care? Look around your neighborhood, or use craigslist for some current volunteer things you could do. The internet is out there! Do you happen to have a community college you could try going to part-time? Would you or your parents be able to afford that? It'll help with meeting people, and so would the volunteering. -shrugs- These are just my helpful hints of advice. It's what I tried doing after a completely horrible break up, and an exhausting year. Link to post Share on other sites
dthompson0786 Posted November 5, 2012 Share Posted November 5, 2012 Volunteering would be a great way to help. It would be fun and you can even try a few different places that you can enjoy. Sometimes volunteering can lead to a job too. But definitely starting a daily routine would be the first step to get yourself back on track. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
River Rain Posted November 5, 2012 Share Posted November 5, 2012 well i started seeing a psychiatrist but i dont know how much hes really helping me :/ thanks for replying tho. i just really dont wanna be depressed anymore. I'm managing depression, was diagnosed finally in 2003. I did 9 years of therapy total before and after my diagnosis, for most of it, I felt it did nothing for me, but insurance paid for it so I kept going. I'm two years now feeling better and I can really see the benefits of therapy in hindsight. I think you should keep going. Link to post Share on other sites
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