I wonder what she'll be like...?

[Inflikted]

This is more me whimsically looking ahead to the future, than anything else, really, so feel free to pass on by if this doesn't interest you in any way, shape, or form.

 

Anyway, as some of you may already know, I'm a bit of an oddity. I have a lot of "hangups" and apparent mental issues that make it nigh impossible for me to find a girl I'm "attracted" to enough to want to date. But, I do say "nigh" impossible, because it does happen (twice, in fact), it just never ends up working out for me. I seem to have developed a bit of a "pattern"; it seems like every 4-5 years, I find a girl I'm "attracted" to.

 

Back in 2008, it was an old classmate I had gotten back in touch with (and was, in fact, the reason I started coming to this site in the first place). I was crazy about her. But it's funny, because looking back, I'm not sure what I ever really saw in her, to begin with. We were never that "compatible", nor did we have much in common. For some reason, I was just drawn to her so strongly.

 

After that whole debacle, things went pretty quiet for years. Then, a few months ago (and some of you may have heard this story quite a bit by now), I finally fell for another girl. This girl, I feel, I fell for for the "right reasons". We're very compatible, we have a ton in common, and I could really picture a nice, equal relationship between us. But, for reasons I guess I'll never know, she apparently doesn't want to date me.

 

So, it looks like it'll be around 2016 that I'll find the next girl I'll be attracted to, given my developing pattern. I wonder what that girl, in 2016, will be like...? I wonder what she'll look like, what her name will be, what kind of sense of humor and personality she'll have, how much (if anything?) we'll have in common, etc. Preferably, I'd rather she be more like girl #2 than girl #1, because girl #2 is exactly what I want in a girl, to a "t". I'd rather not fall for someone like girl #1 again, because that would just be silly, but I wouldn't put it past myself... "Attraction" seems stupid like that, at least for me.

 

Most importantly, I'd hope girl #3 will want to be with me, because I'm not too crazy about the idea of having to wait for 2020 for girl #4, 2024 for girl #5, 2028 for girl #6, etc. But, I guess we'll see. It sure would be nice if time could speed up a bit, heh...