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ConfusedInOC
Originally posted by mørkt selvmord

sounds to me like you can do better than her :(

 

17 years.

 

That's how long it's taken me to find someone that I truly loved.

 

15 seconds.

 

That's how long it took to shatter everything.... :(:(:(:(

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mørkt selvmord

im sorry... but dont think it was your fault bcuz it wasnt.. i know you havent said if but if you are feeling it.. get rid of that feeling.. she sounds like she didnt really care for your feeling at all.... :(

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ConfusedInOC
Originally posted by mørkt selvmord

im sorry... but dont think it was your fault bcuz it wasnt.. i know you havent said if but if you are feeling it.. get rid of that feeling.. she sounds like she didnt really care for your feeling at all.... :(

 

I need to know why.....

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ConfusedInOC

Oh I don't know but I can't stop crying. I've been crying for an hour....this is not like me.....she hasn't called me back....

 

I can't handle this....

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mørkt selvmord

maybe she dont want to call you back? you should try to get over her or something.. obviously she doesnt want a great guy like you.. she wants a drone who worships a dead guy just the same as hers.. just try to move on.. try and go to sleep os my opinion.. im sorry man :(

 

*gives Confused a BIG bear hug to make him feel better* :(

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lifeisloveispain

Been awhile, guys. Sorry, I was on vacation for a bit. Just caught up, and dude, that SUCKS. I know it doesn't help, but I feel for you man.

 

Sorry to do this, but first, get a grip. What's with this "I've never felt more like ending it" crap? I don't wanna hear that! Man, life is too short to think like that, and you've got WAY too much to give. Sorry to be a jerk, but that's my tough love intervention thing. :)

 

Anyways, you're tearing yourself apart over this. That's obvious. And understandable. I know everyone is gonna be all "don't blame yourself, it's not your fault blah blah blah." Well, they're right. On the other hand, it can be pretty hard not to do that. It's gonna hurt. That's ok. Let it - that's how you heal. Time will ease this, and not much else.

 

If you wanna try to patch things up, go ahead. But try once and only once. If you keep holding on to this hope and it never happens, you're gonna go nuts. If you can patch things up with this girl, great. If not, grieve, and then move on. Don't drive yourself completely crazy over it (I know, it sounds impossible to just let it go - ain't love grand). Just remember that you can survive this, and come out of it better than ever. Just give it time.

 

-lifeisloveispain

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mørkt selvmord
Originally posted by lifeisloveispain

... Man, life is too short to think like that...

 

 

i cant stress to you how much i HATE it when people say that.. what... is there something longer? (im not being mean.. said in a nice tone.. not bitchy one)

 

anyways.. liveisloveispain is probably always right in this kind of situation.. you should move on.. as you can see this girl wont give you the light of day.. so why not get one who sees you for more than you? by the way your posts are written.. you sound like a pretty settle guy.. one who relaxs just as much time as he works.. has a ****load of friends and the reason is is bcuz hes nice and caring.. it sounds like you have a big heart that some random bitch came by and crushed to bits and pieces.. go find someone who can fix your heart :)

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ConfusedInOC

Thanks all for the advice. I ended up calling her and she came over Saturday night. We talked at length about everything and the best route seems to be to take things very slowly. She agreed to that. I don't know if it will work, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to make this work and at least she is open minded and leaving the door open.

 

I appreciate your advice.

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Thanks. Tonight I wrote a poem about her. It's kinda cheesy, wanna read it?

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For as long as I can remember

Love has eluded me

And try as I may

Love was never meant to be

 

Then along came Rebekah

Who changed my world

From one with no meaning

To one God unfurled

 

Though all of my life

I have waited for you

I never knew true love

Until you came through

 

This new path I take

Is the one you steer

But the end of the road

Is what I most fear

 

A lifetime with you

Is a dream come true

But in the end

Am I the one for you?

 

We'll never know

Unless we try

So at the end of the road

You won't be wondering why

 

Fear as you might

That I am not the one

Please believe me, love

I'm here for the long run

 

And love you I do

With all of my heart

When I'm on your mind

We'll never be far apart

 

So this poem I have written

For Rebekah my love

And pray to the heavens

To God far above

 

"Please God help me

become a better man,

So that one day I know

The love that we can"

 

My tears you have seen

And you know to be true

There's only one for me

And you know that it's you

 

So here's what I hope

That you feel the say way

Until that day comes

I will kneel here and pray

 

Copyright 8/31/2004

me!

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Heard this song today on Yahoo! Launch. Just change it from Superwoman to Superman and you have me and the exact situation I am in:

 

SUPERWOMAN

Words & Music by Jen Foster

I've centered my whole life around your every need

And I got the groceries and I kept the house real clean

And I never once complained

'Cause I love you

And I waited here at home while you went out with all your friends

Yeah, I got into your groove, Babe, although I never quite fit in

I was a little offbeat

And not on cue

Do you even see me standing here before you?

Do you even hear me or do I bore you?

 

Chorus

Hey, I really feel kind of stupid just trying to be everything to you

But it does no good, I could never be that cool, yeah

Have I ever told you how I paint you in my mind?

But when I put the brush to canvas I find you hard to recognize

'Cause you're looking straight at me,

Right in my eyes

And suddenly I feel me reaching trying to find the real you

And you smile and pacify me and happily I play the fool

Is there something I can get you?

It's what I do

Are you hungry? Are you thirsty? Are you empty?

Is it getting cold in here or is it just me?

 

Chorus

Hey, I really feel kind of stupid just trying to be everything to you

But it does no good, I could never be that cool, yeah

And I am only now accepting I am human, I cannot be Superwoman

Oh, it's so easy to love you, but it's hard to be that cool, yeah…

I'm not Superwoman - don't know how to fly

I'm not Superwoman - I gave it my best try

I'm not Superwoman - someday I'm gonna die

What a life…

 

Chorus

Hey, I really feel kind of stupid just trying to be everything to you

But it does no good, I could never be that cool, yeah

And I am only now accepting I am human, I cannot be Superwoman

Oh, it's so easy to love you, but it's hard to be that cool, yeah…

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I've been paying a lot of attention to her emails and the way she talks to me. I am now convinced that she doesn't love me and probably never will.

 

We're meeting on Sunday and I think I will probably just let her go. They say if you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, they are yours. If not, they were never meant to be.

 

It's what she has been saying/doing that tells me that the only reason she reconsidered keeping the relationship going is probably because she felt sorry for me. That's no reason to keep things going. I don't want a relationship with someone who does not now and may NEVER love me.

 

I love this girl more than life itself and I don't know HOW I am going to get over this. But does it make any sense for me to chase someone that doesn't wish to be caught by me?

 

I hate my life....

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