mørkt selvmord Posted August 29, 2004 Share Posted August 29, 2004 sounds to me like you can do better than her Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted August 29, 2004 Author Share Posted August 29, 2004 Originally posted by mørkt selvmord sounds to me like you can do better than her 17 years. That's how long it's taken me to find someone that I truly loved. 15 seconds. That's how long it took to shatter everything.... Link to post Share on other sites
mørkt selvmord Posted August 29, 2004 Share Posted August 29, 2004 im sorry... but dont think it was your fault bcuz it wasnt.. i know you havent said if but if you are feeling it.. get rid of that feeling.. she sounds like she didnt really care for your feeling at all.... Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted August 29, 2004 Author Share Posted August 29, 2004 Originally posted by mørkt selvmord im sorry... but dont think it was your fault bcuz it wasnt.. i know you havent said if but if you are feeling it.. get rid of that feeling.. she sounds like she didnt really care for your feeling at all.... I need to know why..... Link to post Share on other sites
mørkt selvmord Posted August 29, 2004 Share Posted August 29, 2004 maybe she sees you as a 'friend with benefits' only? =\ Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted August 29, 2004 Author Share Posted August 29, 2004 Oh I don't know but I can't stop crying. I've been crying for an hour....this is not like me.....she hasn't called me back.... I can't handle this.... Link to post Share on other sites
mørkt selvmord Posted August 29, 2004 Share Posted August 29, 2004 maybe she dont want to call you back? you should try to get over her or something.. obviously she doesnt want a great guy like you.. she wants a drone who worships a dead guy just the same as hers.. just try to move on.. try and go to sleep os my opinion.. im sorry man *gives Confused a BIG bear hug to make him feel better* Link to post Share on other sites
lifeisloveispain Posted August 31, 2004 Share Posted August 31, 2004 Been awhile, guys. Sorry, I was on vacation for a bit. Just caught up, and dude, that SUCKS. I know it doesn't help, but I feel for you man. Sorry to do this, but first, get a grip. What's with this "I've never felt more like ending it" crap? I don't wanna hear that! Man, life is too short to think like that, and you've got WAY too much to give. Sorry to be a jerk, but that's my tough love intervention thing. Anyways, you're tearing yourself apart over this. That's obvious. And understandable. I know everyone is gonna be all "don't blame yourself, it's not your fault blah blah blah." Well, they're right. On the other hand, it can be pretty hard not to do that. It's gonna hurt. That's ok. Let it - that's how you heal. Time will ease this, and not much else. If you wanna try to patch things up, go ahead. But try once and only once. If you keep holding on to this hope and it never happens, you're gonna go nuts. If you can patch things up with this girl, great. If not, grieve, and then move on. Don't drive yourself completely crazy over it (I know, it sounds impossible to just let it go - ain't love grand). Just remember that you can survive this, and come out of it better than ever. Just give it time. -lifeisloveispain Link to post Share on other sites
mørkt selvmord Posted August 31, 2004 Share Posted August 31, 2004 Originally posted by lifeisloveispain ... Man, life is too short to think like that... i cant stress to you how much i HATE it when people say that.. what... is there something longer? (im not being mean.. said in a nice tone.. not bitchy one) anyways.. liveisloveispain is probably always right in this kind of situation.. you should move on.. as you can see this girl wont give you the light of day.. so why not get one who sees you for more than you? by the way your posts are written.. you sound like a pretty settle guy.. one who relaxs just as much time as he works.. has a ****load of friends and the reason is is bcuz hes nice and caring.. it sounds like you have a big heart that some random bitch came by and crushed to bits and pieces.. go find someone who can fix your heart Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted August 31, 2004 Author Share Posted August 31, 2004 Thanks all for the advice. I ended up calling her and she came over Saturday night. We talked at length about everything and the best route seems to be to take things very slowly. She agreed to that. I don't know if it will work, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to make this work and at least she is open minded and leaving the door open. I appreciate your advice. Link to post Share on other sites
lifeisloveispain Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 Good luck. I sincerely mean that. I hope things turn out alright for you, man. Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted September 1, 2004 Author Share Posted September 1, 2004 Thanks. Tonight I wrote a poem about her. It's kinda cheesy, wanna read it? Link to post Share on other sites
lifeisloveispain Posted September 1, 2004 Share Posted September 1, 2004 Hey, creativity is the spark of divinity. Do it up, man! Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted September 1, 2004 Author Share Posted September 1, 2004 For as long as I can remember Love has eluded me And try as I may Love was never meant to be Then along came Rebekah Who changed my world From one with no meaning To one God unfurled Though all of my life I have waited for you I never knew true love Until you came through This new path I take Is the one you steer But the end of the road Is what I most fear A lifetime with you Is a dream come true But in the end Am I the one for you? We'll never know Unless we try So at the end of the road You won't be wondering why Fear as you might That I am not the one Please believe me, love I'm here for the long run And love you I do With all of my heart When I'm on your mind We'll never be far apart So this poem I have written For Rebekah my love And pray to the heavens To God far above "Please God help me become a better man, So that one day I know The love that we can" My tears you have seen And you know to be true There's only one for me And you know that it's you So here's what I hope That you feel the say way Until that day comes I will kneel here and pray Copyright 8/31/2004 me! Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted September 1, 2004 Author Share Posted September 1, 2004 Heard this song today on Yahoo! Launch. Just change it from Superwoman to Superman and you have me and the exact situation I am in: SUPERWOMAN Words & Music by Jen Foster I've centered my whole life around your every need And I got the groceries and I kept the house real clean And I never once complained 'Cause I love you And I waited here at home while you went out with all your friends Yeah, I got into your groove, Babe, although I never quite fit in I was a little offbeat And not on cue Do you even see me standing here before you? Do you even hear me or do I bore you? Chorus Hey, I really feel kind of stupid just trying to be everything to you But it does no good, I could never be that cool, yeah Have I ever told you how I paint you in my mind? But when I put the brush to canvas I find you hard to recognize 'Cause you're looking straight at me, Right in my eyes And suddenly I feel me reaching trying to find the real you And you smile and pacify me and happily I play the fool Is there something I can get you? It's what I do Are you hungry? Are you thirsty? Are you empty? Is it getting cold in here or is it just me? Chorus Hey, I really feel kind of stupid just trying to be everything to you But it does no good, I could never be that cool, yeah And I am only now accepting I am human, I cannot be Superwoman Oh, it's so easy to love you, but it's hard to be that cool, yeah… I'm not Superwoman - don't know how to fly I'm not Superwoman - I gave it my best try I'm not Superwoman - someday I'm gonna die What a life… Chorus Hey, I really feel kind of stupid just trying to be everything to you But it does no good, I could never be that cool, yeah And I am only now accepting I am human, I cannot be Superwoman Oh, it's so easy to love you, but it's hard to be that cool, yeah… Link to post Share on other sites
Author ConfusedInOC Posted September 2, 2004 Author Share Posted September 2, 2004 I've been paying a lot of attention to her emails and the way she talks to me. I am now convinced that she doesn't love me and probably never will. We're meeting on Sunday and I think I will probably just let her go. They say if you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, they are yours. If not, they were never meant to be. It's what she has been saying/doing that tells me that the only reason she reconsidered keeping the relationship going is probably because she felt sorry for me. That's no reason to keep things going. I don't want a relationship with someone who does not now and may NEVER love me. I love this girl more than life itself and I don't know HOW I am going to get over this. But does it make any sense for me to chase someone that doesn't wish to be caught by me? I hate my life.... Link to post Share on other sites
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