Ilovehertodeath Posted August 5, 2004 Share Posted August 5, 2004 Well its been about 4 weeks and ive been doing "NC". she called me a couple of times and I returned her calls the follow day. Every now and then she gets online and instant messages me , asking how im doing and stuff like that. Today in her "Xanga" she said this.......... Hey...im kinda lost...Ive been thinking see...me and my ex planned our whole life together, we were gonna get married and have kids and live happily ever after forever, we even picked out our kids names....now its over...whats going to happen now? What if no one ever loves me like he did and actually wants to be with me forever and always? I cant do that, I cant live all by myself and never have kids and die an old women all alone in my house...it cant happen that way it just cant!! My mom says ill find someone and things dont always go as planned and i know that they dont..but im not sure if ill ever find someone...hes the only guy thats actually liked me long enough to put up with all my weird ideas and stupid thoughts to stay with me that long lol but you never know maybe somewhere out there there is some guy waiting for some weird ass girl like me to come along and add a little fun in his life..and until that day comes...im sitting here.. at 4am posting crap in this stupid journal thing that no one ever even reads lol and yea..i cant sleep my head hurts, there isnt anyone online to talk to so yea..im gonna go lay down an listen to music and see if i can eventually fall asleep, i have to work tomorrow anyways..that will be a blast huh?? hahaha yea...Goodnight sweetdreams and I love you all!! oh btw she broke up with me after dating for 2 1/2 years. I would love to get back together with her but If I cant then Im not going to kill myself for her. I felt like utter **** when she broke up with me and I couldnt eat or sleep for 2 weeks but the NC trick worked for me. I dont really care if she sees other guys now. Well, I do but I know I cant control her. I was soooo in love with this girl... and I still love her a lot. My plans are to let her live her life and talk to her once in awhile and be really nice to her when we have contact . I'm thinking about just talking to her atleast once a week but a very brief convo. Any suggestions? I know she will come back sooner or later. If she doesnt.....oh well life goes on. I didnt do anything wrong. Link to post Share on other sites
Pocky Posted August 5, 2004 Share Posted August 5, 2004 I think your plans are the best thing right now. Just keep doing what you're doing and see what happens. Maybe she is confused maybe she isn't but unfortunately in this situation you can only control your own actions. Just follow your plan. Link to post Share on other sites
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