"why does it seem to be getting worse????" Help out

[kodiak]

Hey everybody!!!! Im not too sure what has been going on with me these past days. I feel as if I am back at the beggininng of my break up when my ex told me. I was doing better and then these last three days it has been horrible. I went over to my moms house today and cried and cried to her. I feel so pathetic at times. Im 24 years old and feel like the world has come crashing down on me because of a relationship that ended. I was only with her for 10 months. The last two nights I have these recurring dreams that mne and her are getting back together. Last night i woke up like three in the morning with tears rolling down my face. I love this girl more than anything. Far more than I have ever loved a girlfriend in the past. Its killing me inside and i just want one day for the pain to go away. It has been almost two months and about three weeks of NC. I have pretty much given up that she would ever want to work things out. I guess im just venting her basically. It has taken such an effect on me that I feel so worn down. I knwo that i will move one but when, how long? YAnybody that hasnt read my post "Ex called need some advice" please do. Im looking for any help that i can get. Im just tired of hurting and missing her like I do.

 

They say that breakups have good and bad days. Maybe its just that right now. I have a great life and so much to over a girl. I have a carreer as a fireman and I make great money. I treated my ex like a princess and I would do anythig for her to see that... Thanks everybody for reading. good Luck to everyone struggling out there....Kodiak

[Pocky]

It has been almost two months and about three weeks of NC.

 

That seems like such a long time..god I hope mine doesn't last this long. I'm so sorry you're having a hard time getting over this. I wish I had some advice but I'm at a loss.

[dugs]

Kodiak

I'm in the same boat as you. I am 23 years old and have had many different relationships throughout my young life. I have dated many different girls, and had long terms as well, but finally found excactly what I wanted in a significant other with my ex. I thought it was perfect...I thought this might be the one...guess not. She dumped me out of the blue with no real reason to give me, other than she is young and needs to explore other options. This was two months ago and I still hurt real bad. I know I need to get over it but can't seem to let her go as hard as I try. She's not involved with anyone and hasn't been since we boke up. She wants to be friends but I can't do that, its too hard. I went a month without talking to her but that was ruined a few days ago because we have mutual friends and I happen to be in the same place as her, and she came up and talked to me. Now I am feeling even worse because I saw her and talked to her. Man, she looked so good too. Prettier than I ever remembered She has lost some weight since she quit taking birth control...well I guess that is a good thing that she quit taking it because that might mean that she is probably not planning on having sex anytime soon...hopefully. Why is it that whenever you get dumped by someone you really care about evertime you see them from then on they look better and better!! It dives me crazy! She told me to call her but I don't know if that is a smart move on my part. I might be setting myself up for more pain...But I guess I'll give it one last fighting chance...and brace myself for the possible second time around rejection...otherwise I would regret it the rest of my life.

 

Hang in their bud, I will if you will...

[kodiak]

Thanks for the reply bro. I know exactly how you are feeling with your ex. I thought my ex was perfect and she was the one as well. My relationship was a LDR so i am fortunate that i wont run into her, it makes it a little easier to deal with. I will write more later but im at work right now so i gotta run. hang in there, I will too.