Sasu Posted November 20, 2012 Share Posted November 20, 2012 (edited) We broke up few months before.Reason being she started liking other guys and instead of me being cool with it and handling situation carefully.I acted immature and messed it all up.She broke off seeing my overreaction.. Now we are back and things are getting along great.She said we both messed up in past,but its life,**** happens but still we are together to this date.That's all matters [Out of context .She compared me to an anime character today ,his personality traits are being stupid..but selfless & caring for ones he love ..Dunno it it was compliment or else :\ ] As for problem.I feel really guilty for my passive aggressive behavior & immaturity before.I am worried how much I have hurted her because of this and how this girl still can be in love with me . I want to be mature.I am caring,hardworking and try my best to be a good boyfriend .Just sometimes my child like nature kicks in ( consisting of over reaction,multiple texts and mails of lecturing her like Im her dad while making fool of myself ). Im guilty of all this .I don't know how to forgive myself and treasure the second chance we both have given to this relation.I want to change.I am changing but i can't forget what happened and this all is eating me away slowly getting me scared that I'll again do something stupid to mess everything again.. Can i get some help.. Edited November 20, 2012 by Sasu Link to post Share on other sites
BellaMarieOC Posted November 20, 2012 Share Posted November 20, 2012 You shouldn't change for anyone. And from what you posted I'm having trouble figuring out what you did that was so wrong. Link to post Share on other sites
mammasita Posted November 20, 2012 Share Posted November 20, 2012 Exactly.....why would you or should you be cool with your girlfriend liking other guys? Link to post Share on other sites
Author Sasu Posted November 21, 2012 Author Share Posted November 21, 2012 I have read alot in LS here..I learned few things.I know how manipulative I got and made her life hard for pressuring her to be with me ,just because I love her.. My behavior was passive aggressive.Few months ago when i wasn't strong mentally .I have cried in front of her and begged her to take me back ..She didn't and I got cold treatment. I just messed up my whole image in front of her .. Then other things are my long mails and multiple texts i used to sent to her.I didn't insulted her or anything,But i pressured her alot to focus on her life and learn to control her feelings & such or it'll mess her life i fear .I feel I indirectly asked her to be with me or she'll feel bad later on & time would have passed for both of us and she'll regret ..Yes I pressured . Now when we are together even after everything ( I acted like a jerk to her..It worked but then again I am guilty for acting like that as well ) . When I think back now ,I realize how unhealthy my way of doing things wer.I always loved and cared for her deeply but i became much annoying & pressuring to her when unfavorable situation arose.I regret acting like a child before . After hearing love u from her again few days back ..I just cried to myself and guilt came over me..I feel like a mess for my immaturity and not able to handle things I should have once .I feel worried that she may not even be respecting me anymore even if she do love me.. I just want to be a better person.I know my faults and I want to work on them.One doesn't need to change for anyone but then again..admitting one's own mistakes and improving them for sake of relation is a good thing...isn't it ? I wish I could read something related on this to control my hyperactivity & emotions ..and act more calm & mature in future. Link to post Share on other sites
Author Sasu Posted November 21, 2012 Author Share Posted November 21, 2012 (edited) Exactly.....why would you or should you be cool with your girlfriend liking other guys? The guy was Gay for instance ? I got jealous and overreacted and went all over on her ..as i feared she may develop feelings for him .I spoiled her image in front of her friends by rambling all over this as I had to let it out somewhere..Since there everything went wrong .my overreaction messed up everything we had before & I don't want it to happen again ..If I would have handled situation better I feel I could have prevented it & her calling that gay dude as her bf to her friends after things went bad between us. She did so to take revenge & put some sense in me ..Still Edited November 21, 2012 by Sasu Link to post Share on other sites
slovek Posted November 22, 2012 Share Posted November 22, 2012 hmm... this relationship seem messed up. But things can turn around if you both work together. Hope things work out, good luck Link to post Share on other sites
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