one foot out the door, i am depressed and he is fedup.

[mandy may]

it seems that i am hving a hard time making any commitments to my life with my boyfriend. i seem to always have one foot out the door as soon as troubles brew. i am taking anti-depressants because i am so unhappy with my relationship and the way things are. i am depressed and therefore in no mood to work or even have any interest in looking for work right now. i am hoping that these meds will soon kick in. my boyfriend does not believe this at all. he thinks that i can work because he sees me at home working and doing things and sees nothing wrong with me. inside is where the problem lives. inside my head that is. it takes too long for the meds to kick in so he is impatient with me and intolerant too. i feel like a used up housewife without the kids. i feel mad at myself as well because i know what i need to do to help us and i just cant seem to do it. right now he is taking care of everything in our apartment and i feel so guilty about it but yet i feel so petrified to try to get out there and find a job let alone what kind of meanial job i could find with basically no experience anymore. i think i should just leave him because all i feel is a burden to him anyways and i feel that i am just zapping and draining his energy on life while having to drag me along with him. this is not how it was before, i had a nice little job then fell into this depression and i do not know why. i started screwing up on my attendance at work and finally was fired. now i miss that job and she said she may re-hire given the circumstances. it is a chain store and i know she would give me a good recommendation because my job performance was always very good with good reviews. i am thinking that since i feel like such a burden i should not take this job back, if she decides she will do that for me, that instead i should leave and ask her for a reference to the same type of store but in another state because i would just have to go home if i left him, and if i left him it would be because i feel so guilty and bad bout myself that he would be better off without me anyways.

[mandy may]

need help/advise, please!

[lioness]

mandy may -

 

Take a deep breath, and go back to your original posting, and please, please fix it so it's readable. Use paragraphs. As is, nobody can read it, I didn't even finish it.

 

But an initial thought: therapy - for yourself, as well as for your bf.

[mandy may]

i was able to edit this as it says you need to do so within 20 mns of posting it. sorry.

[ladyangel]

Sorry to hear your problems are still there, zingy.

[mandy may]

lady you seem to think alot of people are "zingy" on here, perhaps you do not realize that several people can have similar problems.

[ladyangel]

No, there's only one Zingy, and it's you...using different names. You are way too easy to spot girl.

[mandy may]

these are two totally different posts from MEEEEEE! they are two totally different problems here.

have you nuttin better to do then stalk me?

isnt there some kind of code of ethics on these boards about trolling?

this is my user name and i am using it so if you want to make something out of it then go ahead and have your hay day cause you only look foolish anyways.

[ladyangel]

I'm just saying, it's hard to give you advice when your story changes from post to post. You have another current thread (under the name Mandy May) where you say you're not married and are complaining about your boyfriend, then another where you're talking about your husband's drinking. You also say you don't have a counselor and then in another thread you do, and several other things that just don't add up. Then there's your thread about not liking to travel (which is another "zingy" problem). You've also talked about your boyfriend's grandmother, your anxiety and social phobia, control issues...again, all "zingy" problems also.

 

This is classic "zingy."

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/showthread.php?postid=246023#post246023

 

And just so you know, I'm not stalking you...lol. But it is hard to give a person advice when their story changes from post to post and it is easy to see that they are someone else pretending to be someone new. Several longtime members of this forum have tried to give you advice numerous times for these same problems, but instead of taking the advice, you return later under a new name and post the same problems over and over again, in an apparent attempt to gain sympathy.

 

Just be who you are, tell the truth, and maybe you'll get some help. Just my two cents worth.

 

BTW...how's your daughter and the new baby? Have you stopped cleaning houses for a living? How are your dogs?