Illyana Posted December 4, 2012 Share Posted December 4, 2012 I have had two serious boyfriends and one not so in my life. The not so and the first true boyfriend I had both cheated on me. The not so did it right in front of me and the true one swore he didn't think of the girl as more than a friend but then after he died, car accident, I found a Microsoft document in symbols on his computer. When I put it in real word, it admitted to him actually kissing her and staying the night with her (nothing other than kissing) and he was in love with her. I was never a jealous person when I was with him but after that, I felt horrible about myself. He would make comments about other women sometimes too. Oh I also started puberty in 5th grade so I was taller than every other girl and with acne. No boys ever liked me and from middle school up to 9th grade, the girl who was supposed to be my best friend always "liked" every guy I did even when she had a boyfriend. The guy would always like her too. It was devastating. Well my 11th grade year I got a boyfriend, the first love of my life. We dated for almost four years but I suffered with severe jealousy even though I knew he would never cheat on me. He would never go out of his room. It was like pulling teeth to get him too. I was also his first girlfriend and first love. We had a very close mutual friend and even he said, he is a very honest person, that my boyfriend would never cheat on me. He never gave me any reason to believe he would cheat but I couldn't help myself. I always thought there was someone else and another girl would take him away from me. I am aware I have a problem and I'm looking for help. Any suggestions? Link to post Share on other sites
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