I Feel Really Stupid

[cece_2_fine]

Last year my friend (Who I'll call Dasha) and I lied to our parents and told them we were going to another friend of mines (Who I'll call Tammy) house for a project. We really were going to the Tammy's house but not to do a project we were going there because Dasha wanted to spend time with her boyfriend, Black, and the only reason I was going was because Dasha and Tammy didn't know each other and after Dasha got finished chillin with Black she needed some bodies house to leave from ,that was a girl, so that it wouldn't seem obvious and Tammy was the only girl that we knew in that neighborhood and it wouldn't seem right for Dasha to be at Tammy's house alone without someone she knew because of the simple fact that they didn't know each other so she asked me to come along.

 

I went over Tammy's house with no intentions of doing anything wrong. So once we got to their neighborhood we all went to Tammy's house to wait on Black to come get Dasha and he finally came. Dasha left with him and she told me she'd be back in no longer than an hour. So I didn't worry because soon I'd be home and the scheme would be all over. Well three hours had past and she had not called or came back and I was getting worried because she was my only way of getting home. So I stood outside of Tammy's house with Tammy hoping she would show up soon but she didn't. Finally I seen these two boys who went to my school, who were friends with Black so I asked them if they knew where he lived and they said Yeah and to come with them, they'll take me. So I left and went with them to Black's house.

 

One of the guys who were taking me was really cute and I'd had a crush on him for two years but never got a chance at him because he'd had a girlfriend for two years. At the time i had a boyfriend too. Anyways the walk was longer than I thought because it turned out that Black didn't live in her neighborhood he lived in a neighborhood that was connected. So on the walk we were talking and laughing and doing alot of flirting. Anyways we finally got to Blacks house and Black came to the door he told us to all come inside and go up stairs so that his folks wouldn't see us, so we did.

 

When I went upstairs I saw Dasha sitting on a bed in the back room and she was fine. I was at a lost of thoughts and wasn't too worried about getting home any more because I was having too much fun. The guy who I was flirting with on the walk grab my hand and took me to another room where we started hugging and kissing and he asked me if I wanted to have sex. My mind was telling me no but body was telling me yeah. So I decided to ask Dasha what she thought of it. She said," Yeah I think you should. Nobody will know but us and ya'll both have another person so it will be fun and adventurous because ya'll need to try somebody new." I didn't know what the hell she was talkin about but I ended up doing it anyways.

 

Afterwards I felt real bad and I started crying because we'd both cheated on our mates and I know his girlfriend and although we aren't friends we aren't enemies and I still have to look her in her face. He wanted to know why I was crying but I wouldn't tell him so he was getting angry. Black drove us back to Tammy's house and we went home. When i got home I went upstairs in the bathroom and cried more. My brother came in to ask me what was wrong and I told him what had happened not knowing my father was in the other room. He had heard everything I'd said and he walked me straight to the car and made me show him where the boy lived, so I did. He spoke with the boys mother and I made it clear that it was consensual but they both were very upset. Everyone who was involved got in trouble except Tammy so everybody was mad at me because it was my fault. The next day at school me and Dasha were crying all day because we were mad and ashamed at ourselves. Sure enough the news began to spread and people started finding out. My boyfriend didn't go to my school so I had nothing to worry about except for getting a rep. and hearing his girlfriends mouth. Although he was very mad at me and didn't want to speak to me any more we made a deal that we would keep our mouths shut.

 

I stuck to the deal and didn't say a word but it turned out that he went to his girlfriend and told her that I that I tried to have sex with him but he said no because he had a girlfriend so I got angry and started telling people that we did just to break them up, which is a lie.

 

So when I found out he'd done that we were out of school and it was summer time so I called his girlfriend and told her that it did happen and I was sorry. All she said was "OK". I could tell from the tone of her voice she didn't believe me.

 

Okay so now its a new school year and her and all her friends are constantly talking sh** about me saying that Im the desperate hoe who lied and said i fu*ked her boyfriend. When she finds out i did she's going to feel real stupid but in the mean time I gotta feel stupid because nobody believes me. I'm not the only one he cheated on her with he also cheated on her with a twelve year old and two other girls and he's about to be 18.

 

I have to go to school everyday and hear everyones ridicule and I wanna kick all of their a** but I cant.

I really want to fight his girlfriend for being so fu*kin stupid but if I do I get suspended for 10 days and whatever my mother does and I really wanna graduate so I cant afford to miss 10 days. I really fell that she isn't worth messin my life up but I want to let them know that I aint the one to f**k with. What should I do? :

[supermom]

When I went upstairs I saw Dasha sitting on a bed in the back room and she was fine. I was at a lost of thoughts and wasn't too worried about getting home any more because I was having too much fun. The guy who I was flirting with on the walk grab my hand and took me to another room where we started hugging and kissing and he asked me if I wanted to have sex. My mind was telling me no but body was telling me yeah. So I decided to ask Dasha what she thought of it. She said," Yeah I think you should. Nobody will know but us and ya'll both have another person so it will be fun and adventurous because ya'll need to try somebody new." I didn't know what the hell she was talkin about but I ended up doing it anyways.

 

Tell her this, what really happened. Tell her about the 12 year old. Tell her if she doesn't believe you fine its her prob not yours. Tell her you are just letting her know and if she doesn't care than neither should you.

 

Don't act too bothered by it. That's why the girls keep talking sh*t, because they know it's getting to you.

 

Next time you hear **** say "well it's her stupid boyfriend that can't keep his pecker in his pants, not mine" That'll get her!

 

Good luck, but let this be a lesson to you..

[cece_2_fine]

but it's like whenever she's with her friends talkin about me I'm usually by myself. If I were with my friends I'd be able to laugh and act as if it don't fase me but when I'm alone I can't help but sit there and feel stupid.