FightClub Posted December 18, 2012 Share Posted December 18, 2012 (edited) Hey guys, I was having a bit of a low point tonight, don't know if it's the holidays or just progress burnt out from College finals, I found myself drifting on thoughts of exMW today. As I sit and think, I rationalize that whatever I'm feeling or why I'm feeling any specific point must be backtracked to where I was before and then I look at now and know who and where I am, a man who is two years out of the affair since October. I have seen a lot of newer OM/OW lately and those coming back for multiple rounds of the affair, it's unfortunate because there is one concrete piece of knowledge I've gained from all this; I am worth more. I remember the late nights, the sneaking around over text messages, instant messages, e-mails and social media chatting with exMW and in all of that, where did it really get me? A year of communication and a one-night stand? Is that what I was really signing up for? or did purposely ignore the red flags because I didn't think I deserved more than scraps back then? Well, it's all the above, the empty promises and declarations of love are just fantasy, no matter what kind of affair you are in, it's just a small dose of a fantasy when there is an entire world of people out there! So, I just wanted to say to those involved or thinking about previous involvement, it's tough but you really are worth more than someone who is married. I know this now because I couldn't see just how lonely I was then, I sacrificed my own morals and beliefs because I foolishly believed in something 'special' with exMW, much like anyone who has been in an affair. I can tell you this though, that person I once was is gone now and even though things have slowly gotten better and I am stronger for my experiences, I never forget that I had to stumble, dust myself off and move forward because I know somewhere, a long-term relationship is possible outside my short-term relationships. Something an affair can never truly provide; real progress, worth investing time and experience into. You. Are. Worth. More! Remember this guys! Also, writing this helped me feel better after my low point just now, Happy holidays everybody! 2013 is almost here and anything is possible! -FC Edited December 18, 2012 by FightClub 8 Link to post Share on other sites
Lillyfree Posted December 18, 2012 Share Posted December 18, 2012 thank you so much for posting this. i cannot put into words how much it meant to me, especially today. you are an inspiration to those who know in their heart they deserve more, but just need a bit of will power and time to behave that way, and really believe it. hope you have happy and safe holidays Link to post Share on other sites
missy268 Posted December 18, 2012 Share Posted December 18, 2012 Absolutely! I will never settle for being his OW again or anybodys OW! i know i won't now. I have recently seen my ex AP for who he is. It really hurt as i still had him on this pedestal, but i've seen him for who he is and he's the biggest flirt with women, and i saw him behave how he did with me with somebody else (we work together) and that made me step back and think i was nothing special to him - doesn't mean though i am not nothing special and one day somebody will see that , and hopefully he won't be attached I've seen him today at work, and nothing...i was numb to him, didn't feel a thing. I sometimes look at him and think how attractive he is - today he was just ex AP....nobody, so i do wonder if i am getting there, finally after nearly a year of it being over (he went back to his girlfriend) I kept thinking he would come back, especially when at work he was telling me when i'm there it's different and he's happier, and things are better....I started thinking he was the one which is why we had our fling...now i know hes not. I ignored people who told me that he was like it with othe girls too, i was like you don't know him like i do.. i was actually warned but chose to ignore the warnings. I know i deserve better To those who don't , they just need the time, and one day they will see their AP in a totally different light...I feel for my ex AP's girlfriend, but one day, she will wake up to him too! x x 1 Link to post Share on other sites
goldengirl11 Posted December 21, 2012 Share Posted December 21, 2012 Thank you FightClub. Much appreciated. Wishing you a great Christmas and all the best for 2013 too! Also to others who identify with this thread. Link to post Share on other sites
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