How to get her back

[iMissHerNow]

Hey every1..long story coming..well, my gf n I have been 2gever for almost 4 years, back then, we were at university n met everyday..then came the time for us to work, she got a job a month after our graduation,march i think, and since then, we could barely meet, we met like only 5times this year n honestly, seems dat the chemistry has died out.. Let me tell u something, me n her, we used to be constantly texting/talking wenever we're free, but since she got her job, it slowly died out..

 

There was this colleague of hers at work, they sit side by side, and since day-1, i knew he was trying to woo her, n sadly enough, he managed it with little attentions, hugging her when she got into trouble at work, being there for her and all..What makes me feel bad, is dat somehow, i thought she would repel him, but nope, instead, it turned out that the slim time we still had free was split between texting/talking to him and me..

 

We broke up 2 months after her job, but we kept it friendly, coz b4 we dated, we were the best friends in the world, for real.. She started dating the guy(he's 32 smthing n my gf is 23 like me), n honestly, it was soooo bad on me, i felt destroyed seeing my half with someone else..this went on for like 4 months, we kept in touch(talking almost everyday), she knew how bad i felt n would often apologise..

 

Then came the day my grandma passed away, I told her about it, she comforted me n found some time for me.. 2 weeks on, we were closely knitted, me and her, sweet words, and she told me how bad she felt about dating dat older guy coz he was always finding excuses for not texting/talking to her, was always busy with his friends boozing and all..slowly during these 2 weeks, we got closer, and she wanted to dump dat guy, she told me the mistake was on her for breaking up and wanted to come back..

 

About 2 weeks back, she called n said she had to confess that she broke up wiv me coz she was dating dat guy one week prior to our break up..I felt ravaged..I felt so bad about it, I told her its final, n dat this time im moving on..went no contact for 3 days, avoiding her texts/calls, begging messages and stuff, n like fate had one more trick in his sleeve, I got my job that very week! Thing is, i had promised her mom I would call her when i'd get a job, which I did( her parents totally love me, for real), we were all happy, I even called my ex dat day n told her, she was damn overjoyed and I forgave her n we were back texting/talking..

 

2 days later, her bf so suddenly started caring n started acting desperate, saying movie-lines, acting perfect again, finding time for her..Then we came to know he had read a msg she had sent me, saying 'Please forgive me, I can't make it without you'..n since dat, he's being like so perfect n meanwhile acting so sad, crying with her on the phone and stuff(n yeah, for real he's 32!)..

 

Well, since dat day, my ex seems to hold some kind of grudge against me..she barely talks to me, and somehow, says she wants to be alone..infact they broke up, coz they came to the conclusion it will never work..but then, she looks so sad..its been 1 week n im trying my best to cheer her up..but i not able to..seems like 2012 has left plenty of scars upon our relation, even as friends..

 

This morning, she called me while on her way to her job and looked sad.. I gathered my courage and asked if she holds me responsible for her break up wiv dat old bastard, she said no and that she needs a few days alone..I was not convinced, and felt bad..infact, I just have this feeling that they will be back together, coz they sit side by side at work and cant ignore each other due to work..n i know the movie like lines he will use will make her feel worse..

 

Well, i could write so much more, but I'll spare you people! Any advice? I feel lost..I dont know what to do, how to react..sometimes i wanna yell and tell her how can she not see how much effort it required me to stay here n watch her date some1 else for practically 5months..but if i do, she'll feel bad.. I just want a way for us to work through it..

 

Thxx..

[ATR]

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