Someone Talk Some Sense Into Me!!!!!!!!

[Lad123]

Hi Everyone!

 

It's been a while since I was last on these forums. Admittedly I never gave any advice, but I certainly had some good advice given to me!

 

I was here originally after the ending of my relationship with my exgf. Since then I've done pretty much everything everyone advised me to do. Been NC for 9 months, concentrated on myself and my career. I felt I was well on the way to being healed.....sort of.

 

I come here today as I seem to have hit a wall. The past few weeks have been probably the hardest in a long while. To say I feel stuck is an understatement!!

I have no idea what's going on in my head right now(if that makes sense).

I feel completely lost, and if I'm honest worried about my future.

 

I feel I have lost my love of life at the moment, everything is a struggle. I'm constantly trying to find this to distract myself. But during my alone time (which is a lot as I live alone) I'm on the verge of breaking down as I feel so lonely....I have no idea what to do!!!

 

It's odd as last year....breakup aside I had a great year...I took up new hobbies, made some great home improvements, I worked abroad for the first time, and I got a long awaited promotion.

And next year is also full of promise. I'm going skiing for the first time and going working abroad to a country I've never been to!!!!

 

You see I appreciate how great this all sounds, and how lucky I am...but for some reason I still feel incredibly down.

I feel like its so some to try and think differently about it all, that its all in my own head. But for some reason I just can't seem to pick myself up!!!

 

I'd appreciate any advice anyone could give me. Has anyone ever felt this way and how did you get yourself out of it!!

 

I'm sorry if this doesn't flow too well. I'm not the best of writers! And apologies if I've put it into the wrong forum.

 

Many thanks for your time!

 

Merry Christmas Everyone!

[LionTamer]

Do you think you feel lonely because of the holidays?

[Nightsky]

Just take things one day at a time. You know what to do. Just don't think to far in advance if thats getting you down.

[Lad123]

Thank you LionTamer and Nightsky!

 

I think this time of year is making it harder, but if I'm honest I've felt this way for a while now. Even to the point that I started receiving counselling 12 weeks ago to try and sort myself out.

 

As for thinking to far ahead. You are dead right! I often find myself wondering planning for things 12 months away. Even though, as this year has proved, I can't be sure what's happening in 2 weeks!!!

 

But still, I have problems internalising these thoughts. There nothing I want more than to enjoy my life again, and be happy with myself for who I am!! But at this moment in time....I'll go as far as saying that I'm embarrassed, ashamed at how I feel now! I just want it to stop.

Edited December 24, 2012 by Lad123
Spelling....again!

[Nightsky]

Thank you LionTamer and Nightsky!

 

I think this time of year is making it harder, but if I'm honest I've felt this way for a while now. Even to the point that I started receiving counselling 12 weeks ago to try and sort myself out.

 

As for thinking to far ahead. You are dead right! I often find myself wondering planning for things 12 months away. Even though, as this year has proved, I can't be sure what's happening in 2 weeks!!!

 

But still, I have problems internalising these thoughts. There nothing I want more than to enjoy my life again, and be happy with myself for who I am!! But at this moment in time....I'll go as far as saying that I'm embarrassed, ashamed at how I feel now! I just want it to stop.

 

Some times you feel like sht and all you see is sht. You'll feel better and than you'll come and read this and be like "what was I thinking?" Just give it time and hang in there.