My heart was broken again

[StillHurtin]

And I only have myself to blame b/c I asked. I had another long talk w/ dh about the A. I asked him something that I have not asked in the past. As far as I know he has told me the truth about everything that had happened between him and the OW. He told me he didn't sleep w/ her b4 he filed for a D or b4 I kicked him out of our home.

 

I asked him if he did anything w/ the OW b4 he filed and b4 I kicked him out. I wanted, needed, to know.

He told me shortly b4 he filed and I kicked him out she kissed him! I asked him what lead up to that. I wanted to know how he got himself alone w/ her. Since they worked 2gether she was w/ him all day. One night after work she told dh she needed to talk to him. They took his truck and they went riding around. She told him that she was attracted to him and she kissed him!!! I am so sick to my stomach about this. I know it's been over a year since the A took place and we have been back 2gether but I didn't know he was w/ her b4 I even kicked him out of the house. How could I have been so stupid? He was working late a lot shortly b4 he told me he wanted out of the M but I had no clue that he was w/ her one of those days. I told dh that he told me he didn't leave me for her and to stop lying about it. He said she had a small part of him leaving me. I know he chose me in the end, but it still hurts another woman was part of his decision to leave me!!! And all those phone calls I made to her and she was trying to be my friend and telling me she will talk to dh about leaving me. I was so stupid, and gullible, to believe her line of crap.

[honey2005]

I know how you're feeling now really hurts and I'm sorry:(. But if you really want your marriage to work, you're going to have to let that go. If you keep thinking about it and worrying over it, it's going to eat away what is left of your relationship.