Do any of you LSers from 2+ years ago happen to remember me?

[I Miss the Kiss]

I'm just coming back here for the first time in 2years. My how things have changed...

[Tenacity]

In all honesty, I don't remember the details, but I do remember the Peanut thing.

 

I read a couple of your back posts. Do you still have contact with him or know how he is? And how are YOU?

 

Yes, it's quite a bit different around here than it was two or three years ago.

[twinsmom]

I had to refresh my memory, but oh yes, I remember you. I think I even wondered in one of my posts what had happened to you. I remember you being jerked around, then dropped again, jerked around, then dropped again, time and time again. So what finally happened? I certainly hope to hear that it's now over for good.

[I Miss the Kiss]

Well... It's not over, but jerked around? Yep.

 

MM actually went through with his divorce, but not before he disappeared (not completely but basically NC) for 6 months, telling me to move on and find happiness because he was hurting me too much with the back and forth, and he had to cut ties with me and work out his life. I was devastated, but after being told to move on a thousand times, and with the help of my great friends here at LS, I finally did just that: I moved on.

 

So about 4 months into "moving on" (which involved meeting a great guy who was an even greater friend who listened to me cry over MM, kept me strong, and eventually I fell for The new guy. I mean, why not? MM was gone forever, and as far as I knew, he was never coming back.

 

Anyway, 4 months into moving on, MM appeared out of nowhere. He said he was letting the divorce continue and his wife wasn't stopping it this time (she had filed). He wanted me back for real and for good. In defense of MM, he was perfect. He did everything I could ever ask him to do. He was transparent, loving, and Attentive. We still lived three hours apart, still do.

 

I wish i had time to type all the details now, but I do not. I can at a later time. Suffice it to say that MM knew I had moved on, I still loved MM. I was already involved with someone else that I cared deeply for. I couldn't just JUMP and leave that situation. MM was actually quite patient with me, but eventually he grew tired of waiting. Yes I could leave this newer relationship (which as of now has been nearly two years-- I've been away from LS for a long time!), but I never felt safe enough. MM had hurt me and pulled the rug out too many times. So I never felt like it was real, although he tried to show me.

 

Bottom line is he was too late, and I am too weak. So yes, the MM does leave the W sometimes, and he makes it real. But it isn't always enough. I will love him til the day I die, but he lost faith in me-- rightfully so. I never gained full belief in him-- rightfully so.

 

My heart hurts, I feel like I could've made it real. But I didn't. So on I go...

[Mount]

I did not know your previous stories, but summerizing from your current post, are you saying the MM and you still play push-pull game over the two years time frame and your emotion is still in limbo?

 

Or after two years you are settled and married to the new guy, or you married to the MM now?

 

Well... It's not over, but jerked around? Yep.

 

MM actually went through with his divorce, but not before he disappeared (not completely but basically NC) for 6 months, telling me to move on and find happiness because he was hurting me too much with the back and forth, and he had to cut ties with me and work out his life. I was devastated, but after being told to move on a thousand times, and with the help of my great friends here at LS, I finally did just that: I moved on.

 

So about 4 months into "moving on" (which involved meeting a great guy who was an even greater friend who listened to me cry over MM, kept me strong, and eventually I fell for The new guy. I mean, why not? MM was gone forever, and as far as I knew, he was never coming back.

 

Anyway, 4 months into moving on, MM appeared out of nowhere. He said he was letting the divorce continue and his wife wasn't stopping it this time (she had filed). He wanted me back for real and for good. In defense of MM, he was perfect. He did everything I could ever ask him to do. He was transparent, loving, and Attentive. We still lived three hours apart, still do.

 

I wish i had time to type all the details now, but I do not. I can at a later time. Suffice it to say that MM knew I had moved on, I still loved MM. I was already involved with someone else that I cared deeply for. I couldn't just JUMP and leave that situation. MM was actually quite patient with me, but eventually he grew tired of waiting. Yes I could leave this newer relationship (which as of now has been nearly two years-- I've been away from LS for a long time!), but I never felt safe enough. MM had hurt me and pulled the rug out too many times. So I never felt like it was real, although he tried to show me.

 

Bottom line is he was too late, and I am too weak. So yes, the MM does leave the W sometimes, and he makes it real. But it isn't always enough. I will love him til the day I die, but he lost faith in me-- rightfully so. I never gained full belief in him-- rightfully so.

 

My heart hurts, I feel like I could've made it real. But I didn't. So on I go...

[I Miss the Kiss]

Not married to new guy. Neither of us are ready at all for that. However, over the two-year timeframe MM and I have played push and pull. It's been emotional because we've barely seen each other. He keeps trying to date some female friends he has in his town, but he ends up calling me. I don't know. Maybe both of us are doomed to be miserable forever.

[dreamingoftigers]

I remember the name, not details...

[I Miss the Kiss]

The BF knows the complete history of MM and I. I believe he knows deep down that I will always love MM. I think he also knows I will never be with MM, some accepts my feelings for him and we go on.

 

I'm hurting tonight. I could have done things so differently...

[Tenacity]

I'm hurting tonight. I could have done things so differently...

 

And if you had, you would not now have a great guy whom you love and who treats you like you should be treated.

 

Your ex-MM is screwed up. The only reason he left his M is because his wife divorced him. Don't romanticize the fact that he is contacting you because of that - because if SHE had not made that decision, he would still be married.

 

Kudos to you for doing better! Stop looking back. You did the right thing.

[Catplates]

I'm just coming back here for the first time in 2years. My how things have changed...

 

Yes I remember you. Things have changed for the better here. People are able to express their feelings and tell their stories without being derided or abused.

 

There was a time a few years ago when frequently stalkers would invade the board with abuse but it is monitored now and folk here are really supportive.

 

Cat.

[scatterd]

I remember your post name but I also do not remember all the details. Funny how time flys it does not seem that long ago. People come and go allot here but their is still some that have been here along time. Welcome back.