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I just got the breadcrumb. I'm very surprised since I seriously never thought I'd hear from him again. It was a text that just said, "Hi". I have deleted it. It's so sad that this is where we have ended up. I never thought I would have to ignore him. I loved him so much and he was my best friend, but then he had to leave me for another girl, so eff him. Jerkface.

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Good for you for deleting it! :love: It sends the exact right message. You're too busy getting on with your fabulous life without him to respond to his lame attempt at starting a conversation.

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It makes me feel better now that I have the upper hand, but I'm still very sad about everything. I went to the doctor yesterday to see about getting some kind of anti anxiety medicine or something. She gave me an anti depressant and a sleeping med. It sucks that he gets to go have a happy life with a new girlfriends while I'm having to drug myself just to try and act normal again. But at least I'm trying. And I can tell I'm getting a little better here and there. I was doing good yesterday until I had a coworker ask me about the wedding and I had to tell her the whole story. And then there was another coworker that I once again had to tell my sad story to. So when I got to the doctor I started sobbing telling the story to her...she kinda laughed at me I think. Jerk. But hopefully this lexapro (sp) and ambian will help get my noggin straight. At the moment I'm just really sleepy still.

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I just got the breadcrumb. I'm very surprised since I seriously never thought I'd hear from him again. It was a text that just said, "Hi". I have deleted it. It's so sad that this is where we have ended up. I never thought I would have to ignore him. I loved him so much and he was my best friend, but then he had to leave me for another girl, so eff him. Jerkface.

 

 

Im in the same boat as you hun!! :(

 

HUGS! XXX:confused::confused:

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It makes me feel better now that I have the upper hand, but I'm still very sad about everything. I went to the doctor yesterday to see about getting some kind of anti anxiety medicine or something. She gave me an anti depressant and a sleeping med. It sucks that he gets to go have a happy life with a new girlfriends while I'm having to drug myself just to try and act normal again. But at least I'm trying. And I can tell I'm getting a little better here and there. I was doing good yesterday until I had a coworker ask me about the wedding and I had to tell her the whole story. And then there was another coworker that I once again had to tell my sad story to. So when I got to the doctor I started sobbing telling the story to her...she kinda laughed at me I think. Jerk. But hopefully this lexapro (sp) and ambian will help get my noggin straight. At the moment I'm just really sleepy still.

 

That's some stupid doctor you have there. Let's hope she never finds herself needing that kind of support....:mad:

 

Many years ago, I too needed some help with sleeping.... And although the doctor told me when to take them, I halved the dose, and didn't take them 'as directed'... I took them when my head said "Ok, I really CAN'T sleep now....."

 

So I never ran the risk of becoming dependent.

21 tablets took me 7 months to finish......

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That's some stupid doctor you have there. Let's hope she never finds herself needing that kind of support....:mad:

 

Many years ago, I too needed some help with sleeping.... And although the doctor told me when to take them, I halved the dose, and didn't take them 'as directed'... I took them when my head said "Ok, I really CAN'T sleep now....."

 

So I never ran the risk of becoming dependent.

21 tablets took me 7 months to finish......

 

I took a whole pill last night and all day today I've been feeling like a zombie and like I need another 8 hours of sleep. I may try half of one tonight. It really did knock me out and I don't remember waking up and thinking too much..here and there..but I was able to fall back to sleep faster. We'll see.

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When my ex ended things, I would cry for no reason at most random times the first week..Like sitting in the toilet it would hit me. Of course it would be when I was always by myself. I was fine with that.

I talked to my ex ex (im very close with her) and she told me she had some xanax to try.

I too one and then two and tried it for literally one day. Then I said to myself, WTF am I doing? I never took a pill in my life, and she for sure is not going to be the one I am going to start taking pills for.

I think that was my turning point of healing.

Never took anything since and don't plan on.

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