MOW/MOM: Is your xAP still lingering in your bedroom?

[BrokenPrincess]

Since my A ended, I am still really struggling during intimacy with my H. It's been 4 months already, and when my H touches me, xMM still pops into my head. Flashbacks of moments we were together, a rush of feelings of how it felt when he touched me, just a picture he sent me, etc. It's so vivid, I don't think I could even recall it on my own in everyday life, but during intimacy with H, they hit me with a fury.

 

It doesn't necessarily happen at the beginning, sometimes just randomly in the middle. Strangely enough, I never had this problem while in the A...intimacy with each man was completely separate. Now sometimes afterward, I still sneak into the bathroom and cry. I cant help the tears just spring into my eyes. I want to be able to just focus on H.

 

Married APs, has this happened to you? Are you able to block it out? How long did it take to stop?

[Coward]

I imagine this would only end when you are truly over your Ex AP. Then you could be free to have intimacy again with your H again. I could be wrong but I think if you are completely over your Ex then you should be able to be totally there in the moment with your H. I feel for you.