aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 some,most of you know what i`m like, and what i`m going through i`ll stand up for myself i`ll say sorry when i`m `wrong` i can be a bit opinionated sometimes..ok..all of the time I can be the nicest/nastiest guy you will ever come across. I mean no harm and never will do. I also don`t know what to do anymore! Everything i believe in just turns to sh it My whole world has ended. I`m not stupid. i`m smart enough to know that life will go on i just want it to go on with my wife and in the way we used to be before things got sh itty. Thats what i dont understand how can you be married to someone and then just act like they dont even exist? what happenned to `happy ever after` or `in sickness and health`?? Is it REALLY that hard to keep vows?>? Why lie? Why BS if you dont mean it?!! Why get married in the 1st place ? i`m just venting i`m at the lowest i`ve EVER been in my life i`ve been in this pit before and i never thought it would get deeper it`s taking more and more out of me aM 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Yasuandio Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 I read your posting to your ex. It touched my heart. You are going to be ok. I am are here for you, whomever you want to be. Yas Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 i just want to be me aM Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 but right now? i hate me aM Link to post Share on other sites
Steadfast Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 We can keep promises, we must trust others to keep them. Why would someone break a promise? Simple; because they didn't really mean it. They thought they did, but deep down? They didn't. The proof is in actions, not words. Anyone can talk...speak. It takes character to keep. We must seek those with that character. Settle for nothing less. We...not just you AM but all of us, we all must learn how to live a life not dependent on the love and support of someone else. Easier said than done, I know. We must become so strong in ourselves that nothing can keep us from who or what we are. We...all of us, must build this foundation. You feel. That's good. It means you're not dead. Even the strongest person will feel the effects of lies and betrayal. If we can't feel, we can't love. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 where the hell did you get THAT sh it from??? is that what you believe or you just quoting?? aM Link to post Share on other sites
Cali408 Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 Good! You have to hit bottom some time. There is only one way to go up! Each minute that goes by, you're one minute closer to being out of this mess. Keep your chin up. Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 Good! You have to hit bottom some time. There is only one way to go up! Each minute that goes by, you're one minute closer to being out of this mess. Keep your chin up. no there is still down i can see the bottom from here Link to post Share on other sites
TaraMaiden Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 where the hell did you get THAT sh it from??? is that what you believe or you just quoting?? aM You're like a cornered injured wild dog You snap and bite at the very people who are only trying to help. That was uncalled for. You are not alone in suffering. But carry on replying to people in this manner, and you will end up suffering alone. There is grace in helping others. There is grace also, in knowing when to accept that help. "Happiness will find you". And when it does, you're more than likely going to crush it spitefully under heel. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
TaraMaiden Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 no there is still down i can see the bottom from here Good. if you can see it, you'll be sure to hit it hard, soon. Then, the only way will be up. The big question is - Will you begin to climb? 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 no i cant it is neverending Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 i really have had enough Link to post Share on other sites
TailSpin75 Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 Keep posting Am. - it sounds like you've got more inside you to get out - so let it out! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 im so tired im so tired of trying most of my keys dont work cos of ammount of tears i`vbe got on them Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 i`m crying all the time Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 ah whats the ****ing point Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 there is nothing left to climb nothing Link to post Share on other sites
Steadfast Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 You're like a cornered injured wild dog You snap and bite at the very people who are only trying to help. That was uncalled for. It's OK. I expected that response. Next, he'll apologize. Passive/aggressive. It doesn't matter. For years the people that love and care most about me have waited patiently for the advice and example they've given to sink in. Some of it has, some of it has not. I'm a work in progress. Honestly. I am working on the strength I need to reach the goals I've set. As I go, I write my thoughts, findings and beliefs. Some will take them. Some won't. Link to post Share on other sites
TailSpin75 Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 Throw down Am - that hurt inside you is like a cancer. Feeling come from thought - let the thoughts out... pour them onto this forum. Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 i cant do this anymore i cant Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 you think you so ****ing smart dont you? you think your **** dont stink? Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 (edited) omg..ive never hurt thre way i do nowe iam done Edited February 26, 2013 by aMguilts Link to post Share on other sites
todreaminblue Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 no there is still down i can see the bottom from here i am sorry that you are in pain am,life can throw wicked curve balls and that pit that you are in is not bottomless, there si always a bottom.....but there's also the way up just depends on which way you really want to go, not need to go but want to go, you have to want it,then it trulypassion that will help you move,, its easier just to stay in limbo go either up nor down, it doesnt take any effort........but effort is what defines us in the long run , the passion for the direction we take and what we feel, recognizing it, accepting it ...and then making that move..........deb Link to post Share on other sites
Author aMguilts Posted February 26, 2013 Author Share Posted February 26, 2013 (edited) i am sorry that you are in pain am,life can throw wicked curve balls and that pit that you are in is not bottomless, there si always a bottom.....but there's also the way up just depends on which way you really want to go, not need to go but want to go, you have to want it,then it trulypassion that will help you move,, its easier just to stay in limbo go either up nor down, it doesnt take any effort........but effort is what defines us in the long run , the passion for the direction we take and what we feel, recognizing it, accepting it ...and then making that move..........deb for what reason? to be happy??? define that for me will ya? just so we can be sure aM Edited February 26, 2013 by aMguilts Link to post Share on other sites
TailSpin75 Posted February 26, 2013 Share Posted February 26, 2013 No one can take the hurt from you Am... but you can keep getting it out... otherwise it keeps coming back... Link to post Share on other sites
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