from freinds to lovers to strangers

[electrogirl]

This is my short story of a miserable 1yr and 5 months into dating Curtis.

 

So it started When i went to a local radio station that was occupying and met this guy named James who was trying to put me in the street team.I walked into a drum circle Nov/12/2011 and that's when i seen curtis (now my ex).I introduced my self to everyone and always happy to meet new people. Curtis at the time was going through a breakup with his ex-girl but they were arguing. none of my buisness so i left.James contacted me to help promote events about music.One night he invited me to this local bar called my office and curtis being a dj had a gig there.Me and him talked and at the end of the night he tried to invite me over his house to sleep over(warning #1).I refused thinking like this guys going through a breakup and needs "company".Days go on i find myself hanging out at the radio station alot and even started to take bellydance classes there wich i took with his step mom and his two sisters.After class me and curtis would hang out and there was chemistry i developed a crush on him.I would come over to his house trying to impress this guy bringing him home made tamales dressing really cute and what not.I spend the night and he was trying to "get it in" and i was like no.since i was practicing celibacy for 8 months.he guilt trip me and said the bible was "in between us". Another night i got horny i gave into flesh and we did it. Alot of thoughts came to my head the next day seeing if i could be with this guy and if we are compatible. i was really liking him and enjoyed his company its been a long time since i was "intimate" with someone.Later as this continues he met another girl named Alanna and they started to sleep together and shortly.

I was hurting and knew about this because of pictures of them together going on a hike on mushrooms and posted it on facebook.They started hanging out and clubbing together and he was still seeing me and her sleeping with both of us i caught an STI, gonorrhea. Being so upset and i told him when i got checked and it hurt me mentally and physically i threw condoms at him told him there not for me there for the next B!@#.My dumbass still stayed with him trying to impress him still.I was helping the radio station move to their house and was hanging out with his sister and he came home and so did alana i heard them walking up the stairs and he saw me and his face look like he had seen a ghost.i left immediatly and didnt say anything.they went to a club that night after i left and hung out with a guy freind and told him what had happened.i was hurt i was feeling like i wasn't good enough.she was pretty and skinny and im pretty and thick.so i started to lose some confidence thinking i was fat.He would call me to hangout and plan going on trips to festivals and would look at his phone background and it was Alanna in her lingerie.I decided to go on dates with other guys and it wasn't working i could not stop thinking about him.i liked him sooo much.anyway we would go to festivals together and have fun this was around April.Then after i went to hawaii we would txt we love each other.i came back he and i couldn't wait to see each other.a week later his dad was doing a kereoke challenges at local bars that i would join and go to.I did a couple of songs singing "lets stay together" at this time he left the bar and was in the car with his ex, she came in it was hella awkward and me singing at the same time.lol! he made that night awkward coming to me and her to me to her.i told him im getting picked up by a home girl and he left with her, even though he invited me!!!!!

Me and my girl went to the gas station and seen them at the gas station.she was talking **** behind my back so said curtis.anyway i was soooo hurt i ended up crying a whole lot the next morning saying i want to move to hawaii. he was trying to contact me still and this dude never knows how to man up and apologize.so i was done and i started to hang out with my girls more.my dumb ass started to talk to him again i know i know.but **** i was in love.i wasn't thinking with my soul or brain just heart.Anyway so they were still doing kereoke challenges and he went with his freind Mikey and they were getting hollered by this cougar named Natasha she had a lot of money and Curtis took advantage of that ending up hanging with her and bought him a sound system and dj equipment. yeah they were sleeping with eachother and going to festivals.

I was here spending more time with family and away from him so he would see her and then after he was done hanging out with her he wanted to hang out with me.at this time i was going on dates with other guys and still no one could have me stop thinking about him.so we hung out another time he invited me to a festival i brought some freinds and Natasha was there and was talking **** behind my back Curtis stood up for me and she left.long down the road she would get drunk and act really dumb and her and curtis got in a argument in sept. and she tried to beat him up.she went to the police station that night and said he hit her. he ended up going to court and i went with him.then the case got turned into judge Judy case and it was about the equipment and suing to get the money back, he ended up looking like a pimp:mad:.And my parents watch that episode!

Since they stopped talking he became different and started to show me love and he cared for me but also became possesive i couldnt talk to any guys no txting no guy freinds.I went to santa barbara for a couple of weeks to house sit and i felt lonly becuase he never called. A night out i ended up going to a club and hanging out with the dj kissing him.i told curtis and we argued alot this was around Nov 2012.He even messaged him on soundcloud and was asking him questions! It was starting to worry me because he became a really jealous guy since he didnt have other girls to talk to.And he always held that against me called me names and put me down and i mentioned him how he did even worse to me. around Dec. things have calmed down then he kept suggesting we became exclsuive and it was nice but it got boring and i started to lose interest and i was paying for our dates gas money, bridge toll.We were arguing alot and times had been tough for me because i had got my car broken into same with my room. I started to feel like i wasn't important and all those things he was grudging about, he started to become bitter..if i tried to talk about it, it became into an argument and was so selfish he didnt care of my feelings. the realtionship was dying love and i didnt know how to leave.until a week ago we got into a bad argument and becuase he was spending so much time on his computer for a week straight trying to make a EDM(electric dance music) casting video for MTV and was putting pics of Alanna and him partying and i told him how i felt about it and told me he didnt care.i started to cry and was telling him we are not together, he fliped out and kicked me out of the house same with my stuff scaterted on the side walk.i left and came back to get the rest of my stuff we agrued more he said some mean things about me and my family and i retaliated and said hurtful things back then i left and never came back.I was so hurt how i put myself through those miserable year and 5 months now he's txting me guilt trips and im not responding.He pisses me off how he cant apologize and tried to put it on me how he cant stop thinking about the hurtful things i said when i retaliated because he was talking more sh!@# and i could hardly get a word in i just wanted to talk to him and he turned it into an argument.Im so happy that i am free of this torture i put myself through.I'm going to live my life now focusing on me and my family and God again.I'm going to hawaii next week to see my best friend and enjoy my life with out Curtis. !@#$ him

Girls and guys don't put up with what i put up with.It feels like a waste of time when your with someone for that long and its not.We all learn from mistakes but plz learn from mine.What i can say what i learned from this relationship is that love can blind you.All my freinds were telling me to leave him.but i didn't.Anyway i did now and feel free!and happy.breakups are hard but no-contact rule is what im following and hope we become strangers.

Out of all the this process i learned a skill which is to Dj and i will be stealing all his gigs!:laugh: