Debbie2508 Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 Yes, I agree about strict NC.... it's only been 9 days for me. Feeling drained today too, am playing tennis in a few hours, which will do me good. I sometimes feel jealous of people like you that get breadcrumbs, and whose ex's ask them to be friends and say they miss them. I wish my ex would try to contact me, just to know he still thinks of me. BUT, it seems to really mess with everyone's head, from what I read, so maybe I'm better off without!! Enjoy your caffeine fix Link to post Share on other sites
Author calgary Posted March 4, 2013 Author Share Posted March 4, 2013 Well, you might have to cancel/postpone that stuff for a bit if you're feeling ish. Don't forget, it's quite a complex drug in that alters the way your brain handles serotonin, one of the inner agents that helps one's happiness level, it'll take a bit of time for it to level out in your system. If you felt ish before, anyway, then what's the harm in a bit more of that before they start to work? Just see it as a healing process. Seriously, one day I was constantly feeling suicidal, the next day I went out, the sun was shining, I bought a Daft Punk CD, I had never felt so good, or alive. That's when I knew they had kicked in. Even though I was only on them two years (ending 2003) - and bar my current, love-based malaise - I just don't get suicidal anymore, depression/OCD/Tourette's/schizophrenia(!!!) runs through both sides of my family, so we all prone to a bit of downtime but somehow I feel Prozac permanently altered the suicidey bit of my brain, oddly! that's awesome and great to hear! I have to go to a night course I have exams at the end of the month for my job. my friends invited me over for pizza. it's a vicious cycle if I stop going out they'll stop inviting me.. and if I keep acting down around them they'll stop inviting me and misery loves company. i'm really hoping i'll just feel a lot better soon, my family are really worried about me and i'm doing really bad at everything. I can't even go out and have a few beers with friends without almost passing out stood up. I've never felt so low before.. i'm not really suicidal.. somedays I just lay there thinking it'd be better to just blow out the candle since I feel my story is done.. but i'd never actually do anything. I've just lost my fight, i'm just rotting away with no purpose instead. I literally am the living dead. I've lost a lot lately. a lot of stuff I really cared about. I don't really care about anything, I can't seem to plan on new things in my life because i'm too busy feeling sorry for myself about the loss of old things and how good my life used to be compared to now.. and I know its wrong and that i'm the only person who can fix this. Link to post Share on other sites
CudLRoo Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 ^If it's any consolation, I'm there too, not actually suicidal but just keep hoping I'll somehow just snuff out in some abstract way, keep hoping to die. But not ALL the time. Guess we just have to stick at this until it gets better, like directionless wiggly worms heading for moist soil. Link to post Share on other sites
Author calgary Posted March 4, 2013 Author Share Posted March 4, 2013 Yes, I agree about strict NC.... it's only been 9 days for me. Feeling drained today too, am playing tennis in a few hours, which will do me good. I sometimes feel jealous of people like you that get breadcrumbs, and whose ex's ask them to be friends and say they miss them. I wish my ex would try to contact me, just to know he still thinks of me. BUT, it seems to really mess with everyone's head, from what I read, so maybe I'm better off without!! Enjoy your caffeine fix honestly, my ex held my hand really tight for two hours.. told me she loved me and missed me, then she hugged me and put her head on my shoulder and burst into tears crying. we spent two hours together it felt like I had her back and then I drove her home and she told me she doesn't want a relationship right now. it really hurts. then she came and found me a week later and accused me of dumping her so I could be with somebody else and told me to text her but I never did. I was pretty hurt by that.. I dumped her for being flirty with other guys and distant with me. not worth it at all. stay as no contact as you can ! breadcrumbs really hurt. Link to post Share on other sites
Author calgary Posted March 4, 2013 Author Share Posted March 4, 2013 i'm quite anxious today I've had a dreaded feeling in my gut all day. I feel really stressed out. I'm a little worried about sleeping as I hate nightmares and i'm scared this stuff will trigger them.. and I know thinking about it will make me have a nightmare. Link to post Share on other sites
CudLRoo Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 You got any beer in? A can or two'll sort that. Don't worry, it's just your chemistry levelling out. Just keep us updated and try not to worry, though if you keep feeling bad ALL the time on it, consult your doc and maybe change to something else. Give it a few days if you can. Link to post Share on other sites
CudLRoo Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 PS: When I first got put on it, the doc told me to take it before bedtime for the first few weeks, because if I'd got any initial side effects, they'd have occurred whilst I was asleep. Maybe try that if taking one on a morn is too full-on? Link to post Share on other sites
Amelie1980 Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 I took one about 3 hours ago it was my first one, and i'm already feeling really anxious is that normal ? Yup. I had panic attacks on them. I found the anxiety more.debilitating than the depression and stopped taking them. Citalopram was even worse 1 Link to post Share on other sites
CudLRoo Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 ^Odd, isn't it? I get along just fine with Citalopram and find it has the best anti-anxiety properties of the two I've tried! It also doesn't numb my emotions too much. My friend, however, hated the things, preferring Effexor instead. Link to post Share on other sites
Feelin Frisky Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 just took my first one.. i'm a little bit scared about it and ashamed that I've had to start taking anti depressants, I've never had them before. i'm not sure what to expect.. anybody on them and want to help / explain how i'll feel ? Congratulations for taking responsibility to improve your sense of well-being. There is absolutely nothing to be ashamed about and much to be good with yourself over. I have taken the same drug in the same dose for 23 years. It is "transparent"--meaning you shouldn't feel like you're under the influence of a controlling or inebriating drug. At first you may experience some side effects like "anorgasmia"--difficulty getting an orgasm but no difficulty with libido or ability to perform--that will subside after a few months and you can try skipping a day here and there to catch up on your nuts. This medication works very subtly. Don't expect a couple of days of use to bring miracles. Instead, take note of yourself after a month or three and ask yourself if you've coped better with everyday life. That's how I realized how the medication works. I could honestly say to myself that I stopped being so temperamental (which leads to sadness and misery) and had ceased my routine behavior of adding exaggeration to my small frustrations--far less cursing, slamming, making that teeth-sucking sound of annoyance. I also got a side benefit that I wasn't expecting--I no longer blushed when put on the spot in public. I was able to reason away the instant discomfort of exposure to ridicule that I had felt since being an obese child. I became very confident and comfortable with every social situation--this ended my belief that I needed to ply myself with alcohol before schmoozing with a new crowd. I think of my fluoxetine (Prozac) as a vitamin I need to be well. And so, it's nothing to me to take it along with my other vitamins. I hope you get as much out of it as I or more and hope you don't jump to the wrong conclusion and give up on it if the early side effects seem harsh. They make a 10mg dose as well. Also be advised that fluoxetine (Prozac) may not work entirely and it is very routine for psychiatrists to add something else to it. Be careful there not to accept any sedatives like Xanax or Ativan. Those are addictive sedatives that muddy the ability to understand the subtleties of the Prozac. All the best and please post in the future about your experiences. Link to post Share on other sites
Amelie1980 Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 ^Odd, isn't it? I get along just fine with Citalopram and find it has the best anti-anxiety properties of the two I've tried! It also doesn't numb my emotions too much. My friend, however, hated the things, preferring Effexor instead. Citalopram was an evil drug for me....made me so sick. prozac gave me.panic attacks. Without meds I am suicidal......what am I supposed to do. Link to post Share on other sites
Feelin Frisky Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 One other thing, seeing above you wrote about fear of nightmares. I have not experienced any nightmares from fluoxetine--it's so "background" that it seems not to ever intrude on my thinking or feeling even when asleep. I have however had meds for other things that did give me vivid and lucid dreams. One was the fenfluramine part of the "fen-fen" combo that was popular in the 80's for weight loss before they found out it causes heart valve problems. The other is Suboxone which is prescribed for opiate addiction. That is the most psychoactive medicine I've ever been prescribed. Dreams get macabre and extremely vivid. I don't wish Suboxone on anyone. You s/b fine with fluoxetine. To me it's so benign it doesn't seem to register at all as some kind of presence either when I'm asleep or awake. I just know that my mind seems to work more coherently when I take it every day as prescribed. Link to post Share on other sites
CudLRoo Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 ^There are many more types than SSRIs like Prozac and Citalopram, I've already mentioned Remeron, Effexor and Sertraline but there are other, newer ones, just try and avoid stuff like Olanzapine because I've got a mate who got diabetes from taking that stuff, it's a rotten drug. Forgot about Tricyclics, one of the older classes, and apparently still effective in certain people. The one I hear is 'safest', though, is Remeron, I mentioned it earlier, the major downside is the appetite/weight gain, it usually does the trick in terms of being an AD, from what I've heard. PS: Did you try Escitalopram/Lexapro, Amelie? It's a variant on Citalopram, some have said it's better but my doc says it's a rip-off by the drug companies, they just changed one pointless molecule and relabelled it so they could have a more expensive product on the market, according to him! Link to post Share on other sites
CudLRoo Posted March 4, 2013 Share Posted March 4, 2013 I have not experienced any nightmares from fluoxetine--it's so "background" that it seems not to ever intrude on my thinking or feeling even when asleep. I never did, either, though some of the stuff I get on Citalopram is NUTS! It's odd, because they're both a very similar class of drug. Anyway, I ain't complaining, I always like fun dreams. Link to post Share on other sites
Treasa Posted March 5, 2013 Share Posted March 5, 2013 ^I've considered Bupropion before, but I'm a little edgy and 'reflexy', a bit hyper, and I've heard this stuff can make one a tad 'restless' - do you find this, Treasa? I have always been sort of hyper, so it along with the Prozac...pretty much just makes me an even-keeled, rational nutcase. I dunno. I pretty much love my life, even if I'm freaking hyper at times. Link to post Share on other sites
CudLRoo Posted March 5, 2013 Share Posted March 5, 2013 ^Hey, thanks for the answer. I might try that combo if I keep feeling down - sounds fun!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Debbie2508 Posted March 5, 2013 Share Posted March 5, 2013 I've been taking Sertraline 50 mg since Saturday and am feeling nauseous, with a headache and sleeping badly, and more anxious than ever! Seems ironic that something that's supposed to calm you down, can make you feel worse to start with! Hope you had a better nights sleep, Calgary. Link to post Share on other sites
PogoStick Posted March 5, 2013 Share Posted March 5, 2013 just took my first one.. i'm a little bit scared about it and ashamed that I've had to start taking anti depressants, I've never had them before. i'm not sure what to expect.. anybody on them and want to help / explain how i'll feel ? Guy or girl? Know that it could kill your sex drive or the ability to orgasm, but that's probably not a top concern right now. Prozac definitely made me tired which I didn't like. It takes a couple weeks to kick in so be patient. Depression is a deadly medical condition via suicide. If you had heart problems would you feel bad for taking heart medication? Your brain is just another physical organ. If your brain isn't functioning correctly then the condition should be treated, just like any other deadly illness. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author calgary Posted March 5, 2013 Author Share Posted March 5, 2013 Guy or girl? Know that it could kill your sex drive or the ability to orgasm, but that's probably not a top concern right now. Prozac definitely made me tired which I didn't like. It takes a couple weeks to kick in so be patient. Depression is a deadly medical condition via suicide. If you had heart problems would you feel bad for taking heart medication? Your brain is just another physical organ. If your brain isn't functioning correctly then the condition should be treated, just like any other deadly illness. Guy! my sex drive is too high anyway. I wanted sex too often in the relationship.. whereas my ex who was suffering depression wanted it maybe once a week. I guess now I don't have a girlfriend it's not the end of the world anyway, probably a good thing. i'm not suicidal at all, like I said I feel like my lifes over and i'm still here, but I have no desire to end it.. I've just lost ambition and purpose and desire and drive. I don't do anything for fun, i'm only sociable so people don't get sick of me. i'd rot in my bed for the rest of my life if I could. i'm full of anxiety and sadness. I need some things in my life to give me a reason to wake up. i'm hoping that this medication will give me the ambition and positiveness and meaning that my life is lacking completely. I need a boost of confidence, I feel really worked up about even getting gas for my car lately. I feel so stupid saying that. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Debbie2508 Posted March 5, 2013 Share Posted March 5, 2013 Guy! my sex drive is too high anyway. I wanted sex too often in the relationship.. whereas my ex who was suffering depression wanted it maybe once a week. I guess now I don't have a girlfriend it's not the end of the world anyway, probably a good thing. i'm not suicidal at all, like I said I feel like my lifes over and i'm still here, but I have no desire to end it.. I've just lost ambition and purpose and desire and drive. I don't do anything for fun, i'm only sociable so people don't get sick of me. i'd rot in my bed for the rest of my life if I could. i'm full of anxiety and sadness. I need some things in my life to give me a reason to wake up. i'm hoping that this medication will give me the ambition and positiveness and meaning that my life is lacking completely. I need a boost of confidence, I feel really worked up about even getting gas for my car lately. I feel so stupid saying that. You've summed up how I feel exactly. Not suicidal, but don't see much point to life. I do go out, mainly to play tennis. Last week I went to a quiz night and out for a meal with my daughter, but I can't say I actually enjoyed any of it. Just going thru the motions. Everybody tells you that you must do this and that, but if its not enjoyable, then what's the point? I get where you're coming from re putting gas in the car. I had to buy a birthday card for a friend yesterday, I was torn between 2 and was getting panicky as I couldn't make a decision! Wtf.... never been like that before! Link to post Share on other sites
Amelie1980 Posted March 5, 2013 Share Posted March 5, 2013 Guy! my sex drive is too high anyway. I wanted sex too often in the relationship.. whereas my ex who was suffering depression wanted it maybe once a week. I guess now I don't have a girlfriend it's not the end of the world anyway, probably a good thing. i'm not suicidal at all, like I said I feel like my lifes over and i'm still here, but I have no desire to end it.. I've just lost ambition and purpose and desire and drive. I don't do anything for fun, i'm only sociable so people don't get sick of me. i'd rot in my bed for the rest of my life if I could. i'm full of anxiety and sadness. I need some things in my life to give me a reason to wake up. i'm hoping that this medication will give me the ambition and positiveness and meaning that my life is lacking completely. I need a boost of confidence, I feel really worked up about even getting gas for my car lately. I feel so stupid saying that. See I am. I've realise I have enough sleeping pills in the house to do it. Link to post Share on other sites
Author calgary Posted March 6, 2013 Author Share Posted March 6, 2013 See I am. I've realise I have enough sleeping pills in the house to do it. I woke up at 5am, shaking and panicking in my bed. I couldn't get back to sleep, I felt so lonely I was in a ridiculously dark place in my life at that moment, I've never felt like that ever in my life. I really don't like this medication so far. don't do anything stupid ever.. life's all just a game it'll work itself out in the end. Link to post Share on other sites
Author calgary Posted March 6, 2013 Author Share Posted March 6, 2013 You've summed up how I feel exactly. Not suicidal, but don't see much point to life. I do go out, mainly to play tennis. Last week I went to a quiz night and out for a meal with my daughter, but I can't say I actually enjoyed any of it. Just going thru the motions. Everybody tells you that you must do this and that, but if its not enjoyable, then what's the point? I get where you're coming from re putting gas in the car. I had to buy a birthday card for a friend yesterday, I was torn between 2 and was getting panicky as I couldn't make a decision! Wtf.... never been like that before! hang in there and let me know how you're feeling today. I hate that I have no ambition or desire. I feel as though everytime I make an effort with somebody they look down at me lately. I am basically living a life for other people instead of myself right now. Link to post Share on other sites
adelia Posted March 6, 2013 Share Posted March 6, 2013 I've suffered from mild depression and my doctor prescribed Prozac but I'm deathly afraid to try any meds incase they're habit forming. Link to post Share on other sites
Author calgary Posted March 6, 2013 Author Share Posted March 6, 2013 I've suffered from mild depression and my doctor prescribed Prozac but I'm deathly afraid to try any meds incase they're habit forming. I hate the thought of taking a pill, that makes your reality seem bearable. it's like shutting off your honest human thoughts, and making you not care . but if it stops you feeling sorry for yourself and gets you out of bed and fight for a purpose and gives you a reason to want to be on this earth then it's worth getting hooked right ? Link to post Share on other sites
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