The dying love.

[IloveEssence]

My Girlfriend Essence and I have known each other since 8th grade/Freshmen Year, now we both are Upperclassmen I am a Junior, and she is a senior. We dated when we were younger, and I cheated on her and we broke up. But last summer we got back together, and we had been going steady, She lives on the other side of the state, and we were suppose to see each other over spring break, but some stuff happened, and our plans fell apart. Ever since our plans fell apart we have been going down hill. We've been getting into fights daily, and the good times are few and far between. It fells like every night we are breaking up, and getting back together. I don't want this to happen, it is so horrible. What kills me is that she has gotten cold, and so have I. We can't go to the same college because our academics are too fart apart. So at least I am afraid our relationship will fall apart. I can feel it right now, the gap between us growing bigger, and the tears we have shed are countless. I am tired of fighting, but the love we have to each other (judge us if you will ) is too great. I want this to work we've put in so much hard work into it, and we don't want to see it all burn out. Our parents don't really understand us, so not much help there. I just need some advice on what to do..I don't want to lose her, I've lost her once, I can't do it again. I am an extremely jealous person and get jealous over every guy around her. I wish I could change that, but it is really hard to. We try to understand each other, but it gets harder every time. I love everything about her, I love going half asleep to school the next day because I was up till 2 in the morning talking to her over the phone. A feeling no other woman has ever made me feel, this love so pure which is being hurt. It is amazing seeing her as a girl now seeing her the woman she has turned into. Does anyone have any advice please..

[will1988]

It sounds like she is your first love. We've all been there and felt that, or are feeling that. However, as they say, the first cut is the deepest. It seems that your relationship and spark is dying. If you want to keep her, why not transfer to another college close to her, or vice versa, that will accept the academics? Why don't you go see her on springbreak? However, if things can not be fixed this relationship will fail. You might want to brace yourself for that. I too have lost a love, got her back, and lost her again. It hurt really bad. However, six years later and I hardly think of her, and have no more feelings for her. I am in love with a new girl, a girl I've been dating for 3.5 years. What I am saying is this, if your relationship fails with your current GF it is not the end of the world. You will find a new love, eventually. Your heart will heel. I know you want to fight for this love, but if you can't even see her, or be near her, fighting for her on the phone/skype/email/text can only go so far.

 

Good luck!