Steve11 Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 Why is that? Last night I was doing alright, she was actually making me angry and I was pretty pissed with the way I acted on trying to get her back. I was even telling myself that I wouldn't take we back. Now I've slept on it, dream about her, I feel like utter **** again! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Wabisabi Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 Omg I know! Mornings are sooo difficult for me! I wake up each morning not wanting to get up and practically had to drag myself out of bed. Then the rest of the day will be alright and repeat the next morning. Ugghh! Link to post Share on other sites
seriously-let-down Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 Mornings are the worst for me still 4 months on, but I've started to wake in the night, with her in my mind, screaming out her daughters name and Crying? I believe its all the psychological mess our mind are in, it think it will pass, but when? Link to post Share on other sites
coralie Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 It's the same here. Every morning I wake up and realize "oh right, he's no longer here" and within seconds all the pain comes flooding back and I struggle to get myself out of bed every day. I feel like I spend all day trying to get my mind to a slightly less hellish place by late night and then the next day it's right back to that awful place again. I know one day I'll actually want to wake up and get out of bed like normal again. I just wish it'd come sooner. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
New2Love4Now Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 Are you me? Same exact thing here... I'm super angry about what I did after the break up to try to get her back. I've been dreaming about her almost every night since the BU and mornings I feel terrible because it's like I'm resetting NC. I have to remind myself that I actually haven't talked to her in over 5 weeks. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
singme2sleep Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 It's the same here. Every morning I wake up and realize "oh right, he's no longer here" and within seconds all the pain comes flooding back and I struggle to get myself out of bed. That's exactly what happens to me! Each morning is such a rude awakening. I went from sweet 'good morning love' texts to silence and it kills me. But the nighttime isn't all that easy for me either... 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Anela Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 That's why I started to get up and get in the shower right away. Then get my tea and get on with my day. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
seriously-let-down Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 It's the same here. Every morning I wake up and realize "oh right, he's no longer here" and within seconds all the pain comes flooding back and I struggle to get myself out of bed every day. I feel like I spend all day trying to get my mind to a slightly less hellish place by late night and then the next day it's right back to that awful place again. I know one day I'll actually want to wake up and get out of bed like normal again. I just wish it'd come sooner. Your post Coralie reminded me of a verse from the song No Regrets by the walker brothers. The hours that were yours, echo like empty rooms, But the thoughts we used to share Now I keep alone I woke last night and spoke to you Not thinking you were gone Then it felt so strange to lie awake alone When I heard this recently it spooked me as I am not sleeping properly and this verse rang so true. Take care. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Renard99 Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 Strangely, it was the evenings that were the worst for me post break up. I don't do mornings very well so would be zombified whether someone was there or not. However, in the evenings it would really hit me. I'd come in through the front door and there would be no one there to have the 'Honey, I'm home' routine with. Nobody to vent to about having a bad day. Nobody to discuss the days news with etc etc. The silence of the apartment was deafening! The way I turned it around though was to look at it a different way...... no more waiting forever to get in the shower. No one used the last of the milk before I got to kitchen. When I got home in the evening I could put whatever TV channel I wanted on. If I wanted to spend all of Sunday watching Motorsport on TV... I did! And best of all, if I wanted bacon, I could just have bacon without my ex complaining because she was a vegetarian! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
coralie Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 I think I might do what you do, Anela. Maybe just force myself to jump right out of bed and do something immediately. Some quick morning yoga or blast some music or watch the news or something then hop into the shower. Some other routine that I can get used to. I've got to break this awful morning drag of painful thoughts and taking forever to get out of bed. Good luck to all of you going through this as well. 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Wabisabi Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 That's exactly what happens to me! Each morning is such a rude awakening. I went from sweet 'good morning love' texts to silence and it kills me. But the nighttime isn't all that easy for me either... Same here. Used to wake up every morning to 'good morning baby' to total silence and a hollow heart. Night time is no better but still not as bad as mornings... I just started doing a series of intense exercise this morning and it felt good. Will keep doing this every week and pray I'll feel better and better soon. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Steve11 Posted March 14, 2013 Author Share Posted March 14, 2013 I've found writing down messages that I want to text her down on paper, then chucking it in the bin! I've wrote some really soppy messages & I'd regret sending them, but it helps! Still have the ongoing issue of her having my stuff, but I'll deal with that as an when Link to post Share on other sites
McDonald Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 What abou waking up and going on a run? It helps so much. Clears your mind and you feel great the rest of the day. And you will probably think of her during your run.. But you can condition those thoughts to the pain of the run... So you won't think about it because it will cause you pain!! Link to post Share on other sites
castroadis Posted March 14, 2013 Share Posted March 14, 2013 Absolutely agree. It's like that Beach Boys song: Tears in the morning. We must stay strong and think of the better days that are ahead of us. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
portableversion Posted March 15, 2013 Share Posted March 15, 2013 never thougt of this before but yes here too , each mornig i wake up and its like oh yeh im here in my tiny apartment away fromher and the boys. But yeah going to bed at night was rough too. and then coming home to emtpy place, no children no wife. oh my god hard to say how many days i cried like a baby. Geez i was crying on wednesday morning and i was thrown out june 2nd 2012, divorced august 7th. i do feel better but ive got a lot more to go. Link to post Share on other sites
portableversion Posted March 15, 2013 Share Posted March 15, 2013 yeah someone mentioned getting on with the day, ha id be at work ryin like a baby, hard to say how many days ive cried at work, i cry driving to work, id cry at work and id cry at the end of the day, id cry some more driving home, i d cry when id get to my place. i dont know why i didnt kill myself Link to post Share on other sites
Infomercials Posted March 15, 2013 Share Posted March 15, 2013 I just... "woke up." Never really slept. I'm used to going to bed without him because of his job, but he was ALWAYS there when I woke up. I always kissed him goodbye before I went to work, and he would snuggle up next to me while I sat on the bed and stroked his hair for a minute. This morning, he wasn't. I couldn't go to work. I had to cancel today...I haven't eaten or slept in 24 hours, and it feels like death. Link to post Share on other sites
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