LONG BUT COOL LIFE TRUE LOVE STORY!didnt get a happy ending yet, but i'll w/ ur help!

[cdn23]

hi ppl, my name is carla and well, i'm still 14. i got in love with this guy last year and i was really crazy about it... i'd never liked a guy like i was liking him. he's only 5 months older than me, so we're both 14ryt now!... i'm realle down these days when i start thinking about him, i hope i get some good advices from you guys here!=) mmm, ok, last year: i remember i was going to move because of this other guy i used to like and i got really happy because my house was gonna b near his, 1 week b4 i moved i started liking chris and i got really sad cuz i thought i wouldnt c him anymore. i told this one guy(friend of mine) because he was asking who i liked and i always trusted him! humm, if i was to go back i'd never repeat that! i remember i did everything to stay in my same school and i got it! i loved chris, and most of my classes were with him. so, i guess he noticed i liked him by the way i looked at him. he didnt hv and gf but i've heard him talkin about this girl b4; i was so jealous but i kept my cool down. one day chris asked my friend if he knew i liked him or not and my freakin friend told him the truth!!! =@ chris was cool with me though, i couldnt even look @ his face anymore, i just didnt know how! i have a hunch chris' best friend liked me too! whatever... days passed and my friends tried to help me w/him but he could do anything and he didnt do ****! days passed and there was a day when we went to the high school to choose which ones to go. in one of the schools his friends told me to ask him out because everyone knew i liked him already! i was so dumb and i asked him out! he first said "yes" i got hella surprsed and i asked again, he said no (then i heard someone saying:"say know to her" --cuz we were talking on the phone) so.... i kept on going... i was gonna say something and he said he was just kiddin!!!! damn! i was ok, and i asked y, he said he'd got a gf and i knew he was liein... after that... i was like dead, i felt so bad, so cracked, like crying, like diein for 1 day at least! i saw him the ohter day and i was trying to get cool again and i asked him if i could call him again, he said NOoo... he really shouted that on my faced, and i cryed! hided in the school bathroom! i didnt talk to him for a long while, even thoug i loved him! i couldnt even hate him for wut he was doing to me... i tried to see the good sides of the thing! maybe i dressed so ugly by the time.... or we didnt had had enough time to talk to eachother(i was hella quiet)... dont know!~~~ from that day on i started dressin cuter, the way he liked! i didnt talk to him.... he was still tellin ppl he was goin out w/ that girl! then, i was valentines day and he gave 2 presents to this girl, not his gf. well, i was about to forget him when he came to me and told me to look in his eyes and he starded singin love songs, the only that really on my mind now is that one"oh my love, my darlin, .....i need ur love, etc" if seemed so real, and he did in front of every body! from there on we got a little bit closer and i started talking to him again! then i had vacation and i had a crush on this friend i have... i forgot about chris cuz this new guy liked me too and he was cuter then chris! when school started again ppl told me he lied when he said he was going out w/ the girl.... not a big deal i knew it, it was obvious!!!!!!! then he starded going out with a girl named gina, and this time it was really true! i got all the info about gina.... and yeah, i started liking him again... sometimes during class he flirted me, or played, he was always so kind! iono.... i love him! one day, close to schools end, he called me and i said i didnt like him anymore (i had a feeling he was thinkin i did, and i really did) my friends say he blushed and he went away then......... i went to my way home and my best friend told me that he said he wanted to talk to me about somethin, i dont know what, yeah.... i never talked to him about it, and i dont know if that was true! i just know that i love him..... all stuff started soming back to my head... the times he went to play basketball near where i allway stayed at lunch, the way he talked to me, aking about my life, the things he asked my friend about me, and yeah............ many things i cant remember all at once! i something think hes like me, because he kinda acts like me when hes talkin to me and yeah.... iono, one day school ended my best friend asked him if he liked me and he said no, she asked y he say because.... he best friend laughed at him! it happened to me at once, but i was a girl who asked i liked him, shes friends with him but she was gonna tell him i think!

now im hella cute, all the guys look at me when im walkin on the street! all his friends say im pretty! and iono.... i wish i could go to the high school hes going to now, but it is too far away from my house and im going to this one, hella boring because i dont really have any true friends like i do in the other school, i cant share secrets or laughed about **** together! im still in loved with chris....and................. ummmm i saw him in the movies last friday. i was there by myself so, their group called me to hang with them, that was hella nice, even though i didnt talk much, my self-esteem gets hella low when im close to him now.... i like him even more now, cant forget him one second and all i wish i had was him! he looked at me sometimes i know, but i dont know what to do, i was looking somewhere else, he said a joked i always used to laugh about but i didnt laugh, i pretended i was looking somewhere else cuz b4 he said that he was talkin about "his girlfriend," which i really think they already broke up, u know?????? im not sure... he might hv said that to make me jelous or else it was true.... really! i love him! SO PLZ U GUYS HELP ME I REALLY NEED, I'D GIVE MY LIFE FOR HIM, AND PLZ DONT TELL ME TO FORGET HIM, CUZ IT EASY TO SAY, BUT IT IS TOOOOO HARD TO DO IT!!!!!!!! i also wanted to know what he thinks about me, hope he doesnt think im disgusting or something..... i know i might be a stalker sometimes, but he doesn't act like he hates me..... (there a guy in my school, and i hate him so i know how i its.... so disgusting, i feel sorry for that guy, i dont look at him cuz i dont even want to make him feel bad, i never want chris to feel this for me) in the movies he stared at e about 3-4 min, eye-eye.... weird... what u guys think? he asked about my school and y i was in the oher side of the city.... (to c him, psssssss) he also laughed about one thing i said, and when i was quiet he tried to say something to me..... HELP ME PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

YEAH..... JUST WAITIN FOR "MY HAPPY ENDING.... CUZ WE'RE MEANT TO B, SUPPOST TO BE......"

 

****************THANK YALL WHO READ MY STORY, PLZ LEAVE ADVICES FOR ME************************

 

-CARLA::::::::::::::::::::::::::;

 

 

i want to know how to go to him again and di it right this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kiwi29f]

You have a really bad case of "puppy" love. You don't think so and won't think so when you read this but you do and we all went through it & you will fall madly in love with a lot of guys(I know from experiance) The way it sounds you've never actually dated him & with you not going to the same school theres a good chance you won't. Its really hard to have a relationship when you don't see them often(and again I know from experiance) If you think he feels the same way about you wait until one of you gets a vehicle and able to drive, your still too young. I'm only 22 yrs old so it hasn't been that long ago since I was in your shoes and I know its not easy controlling your feelings. Try to meet some other guys in your school and as soon as you start "fitting" in somewhere you'll be fine. Take it to someone who went to 10 different schools. When I was 13, I was madly in love with this guy named Steve the only problem is one of my best friends was madly in love with him also, I didn't think he liked me so I never told her. Then one day he asked me for my number & called me, we started talking and he eventually asked me out. My friend was furios and hated me for about...a week and then she got over it. Me & steve dated for about 4 months then summer began. We talked everyday but didn't see each other b/c we couldn't drive. I ended up moving during the summer and we began school again @ different schools. & we broke up. I thought I was going to die, I cried for weeks and longed for him for about a year. We were still friends & spoke regularly until he moved 3 states away. That devasted me. I had finally gotten over him & then he came down for about 2 weeks in the summer & he had "filled" out & looke 20 times better than when he left & it started all over again. That was when I was 15 when he left again. I haven't seen or spoke to hime since. I've dated lots of guys since and am now happily married with a beautiful little girl. So I know exactly how you feel but you will get over it and move on when you meet someone cuter and better. It may take awhile but I promise you will. Good Luck

[YellowLioness]

I agree with kiwi. This seems like a huge deal now, but when you're 18, you'll look back and be like, "eh, sh*t happens."

 

Personally, I know you're crushing hard, but just try to date another boy.