I feel so trapped with no direction

[lovesickpuppy]

I got offered a promotion with my job but it meant moving hundreds of miles away from home. Stupidly, without thinking of the consequences, I took it. A day before I'm meant to be starting my training I'm running them over in my head. Firstly, due to me being unemployed due to my job only being a season contract, I have no money..so am relying on my dad to help me out. I have to pay him back, which I have no problem with but on top of living expenses, paying for basic living, rent at my new place AND car insurance, petrol AND trying to save money at the same time, I'm realising that my monthly outgoings will be roughly the same as my incomings meaning I will have NO savings. This wouldn't be a big issue, but when I'm trying to save for car insurance and just general saving, I am severely worried. At the same time I've applied to do the same job but for a different company, providing I get the job I'm planning on leaving my current job anyway. Now there is no guarantee that I will get this job, and I will still need money BUT at least if I did get it then I wouldn't have the stress of moving, it'd just be commuting to my job instead. However, if I didn't get the job I feel like I'd have quit what is a really good offer at my current job, I'd be out of a job and without money. I really don't know what to do. Do I make this move at this risk of being stressed, depressed, with a severe lack of money and hope that I do get the other job, or do I just stick it out, see if I can handle it and live in hope that I get the other job? I feel like I am a camel in a desert with no true direction, I don't know if I'm coming or going and to top it off, as grateful as I am to my dad for helping me out, he is not very understanding of my situation and is making me feel terrible for borrowing this money, I'm almost worried I won't be able to pay him back as quick as he demands and will be at risk of pissing him off. It's alright me wishing I hadn't accepted the offer and stuck with just my current contract being renewed, not having to move out, but stupidly I made that decision, and I can't change it as much as I'd love to. Can anyone please offer any advice for a greater piece of mind? I'm 20 and just feel like I've been so naive and stupid...and not only that, from all of this stress, I have been diagnosed with depression so, as you can imagine my head is really all over the place.

[AbbyMarie21]

Hi there! I read your post about you're job situation. In my personal opinion,you shouldn't move...that's be a huge risk. I'm sure whatever path you take,you'll get one of the two jobs for sure. Don't stress too much now, it's definitely not healthy for your mental state.