Dame... Is it me..

[Beautifulr]

I'm 19 .. What do I know about love? But I do know I fell hard. Real hard for a female. In the beginning we were friends, we were best friends. Without us knowing we fell hard for one another, I mean I was straight.. Me and another girl? I couldn't imagine myself .. But she loved me 1st.. And then we both agreed to just being friends .. We'd see each other every weekend, we shared so much in common, we laughed, we got high, we did everything together .. We shared our dreams, hopes .. Talked about how cruel this world is.. Without me even knowing .. I fell in love. By then it was too late. I couldn't get out and round only fall deeper .. But we, mostly she agreed for us to be friends. I could tell she didn't love as much as I loved her. By then we'd argue more .. I'd still hang with her but I hated watching her on the phone talking to other guys.. I started to become real jealous and protective .. Those times I started to realize I wasn't just her friend.. I was in love with her and wanted her so badly. I tried getting space from her but its so hard ... She insists on us working on our friendship .. But it's harder for me.. I wanna leave but I want to stay .. I feel like I need her, but then again i could probably be happier and set my heart free .. Her birthday is coming up .. She wants me to tag along.. I'm not ready to see her again .. What do I do ... Please someone Guide me..