Bluerain Posted April 1, 2013 Share Posted April 1, 2013 I'm dreading the 1 year mark...but maybe it will be ok! 18 years, massive chunk of my life, strict NC for 11 months now...he broke it after 1 month but I ignored the 'are you ok' text! Found out he met someone else before he left...they are still together! Good days bad days...feel so sad for those on here just starting the journey...a road I will NEVER go down again! On the upside...NC ALL THE WAY...I can't tell you how valuable this is for your dignity and self esteem. I lost the love of my life, nothing will ever be the same, totally broke me...but I'm still here, hurt...very aware that I was dumped like trash...and moving on! Just so glad I went strict NC from the night he left! Yeh he will always remember me, lot of history...but at the end of the day it is what it is...so sad! Link to post Share on other sites
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted April 1, 2013 Share Posted April 1, 2013 I too am coming up on the one year mark, i have been several months NC, all this after eight years together, so i can only imagine what eighteen feels like. And i too think i never want to go down that road, but i probably will at some point. And this, years after a divorce. I'm no kid anymore. I believe she had someone else before dumping me too. I have to admit i like living in my own space for a change. I'm so used to living under someone elses "ideals" But yeah, the one year mark is one heck of a milestone. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
Author Bluerain Posted April 1, 2013 Author Share Posted April 1, 2013 See that's the thing with me, wish I could enjoy my own space...I loved him beyond and back again...just couldn't wait to see him at the end of the day...every day...so loved his company!! Clearly must have felt/had something to stay together all those years....what a waste...truly I wish I never met him...this pain...wow! Kind of scares you off for life! Link to post Share on other sites
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted April 1, 2013 Share Posted April 1, 2013 I loved her too, same with me- loved her company and wanted to see her all of the time. Living alone after spending years together is TERRIFYING, but once that wears off, its nice knowing you don't have to make anyone else happy but YOU. You are allowed to live daily life EXACTLY as you like! And THAT is something I've come to like. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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