Author RiceaRoni Posted April 22, 2013 Author Share Posted April 22, 2013 Yay! Good for you! I was thinking about you today and I'm glad that it went okay. Honestly, our fears of things are never quite as scary as what it actually is. Thanks girl haha I guess I was worried i would fall back all is well though I hope you're doing well yourself Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 22, 2013 Author Share Posted April 22, 2013 (edited) A rant letter... Dear, M Boy did you send me through hell... not only was the BU bad enough, but afterwards you threw insults at me, mocked me, smirked and smiled at me like you had just won a victory and was flaunting it in my face...and to tie it all in your so called prize is now some girl who is only in love with love, but you're too much of a fool to see that...and truth be told you. are. a. fool. You called me the mistake and claimed you deserved better, but those were lies to yourself. You are the mistake and it is I who deserves better. Now when you do see me you try to act cordial and say thank you to me, and i see your eyes glance when i smile now...thats right. because i'm a stronger person, and you aren't needed anymore...i was loyal to you and trusted you and loved you with everything I had..any fool to throw that away doesnt deserve my attention..so therefore this is why now I ignore you and pretend you do not exist....so save your thank you's and glances towards me, because after all the pain i was put through i can now see clearly and realize you are not the right guy for me... no man who claims to love me will disrespect me like you have with your repulsive attitude. The only problems I face now are trusting another guy again and overthinking....i don't know if I can fully trust another guy when he says "I love you" or when he claims to care for me or give me compliments... I know I should not base another guy off of you, but it is hard...because i don't know if the next guy who is interested in me will be genuine and have truth to his word... but for the sake of myself and my healing...i will learn to trust again and make sure the next man who steps into my life and wants to love me will receive the love you decided to throw away.. Have a good life, and honestly i hope you learn from your lessons...keep in mind you also reap what you sow... RR Edited April 22, 2013 by RiceaRoni 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 23, 2013 Author Share Posted April 23, 2013 I gotta say...I thought id never see myself happy again, but damn do I feel happy again After 6 months of emotional pain and torture....im over him. Done. Im free to be happy once again and free to love another guy again.. I do feel ill have a harder time trusting again, but I know I can overcome that and im smarter as to what to believe and what not to believe.. This has been a long journey for me after losing someone I was with for 14 months, but I look back and saw how much I gave and how little I recived in return. I truly deserve better and will never let myself be in a situation like that again. I will still come one LS and help because of all the support and tough love I recieved on here... I thank those who supported me and helped me all the way through...without that I dont think I would be as healed as I am Good days are here again 4 Link to post Share on other sites
Minneloa Posted April 23, 2013 Share Posted April 23, 2013 I am so happy for you, RR! You are now stronger and wiser from this difficult experience, which you have handled with dignity and maturity. Well done! M. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
iouaname Posted April 23, 2013 Share Posted April 23, 2013 Out of curiosity - how long has it been since you last spoke to your ex? 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 23, 2013 Author Share Posted April 23, 2013 I am so happy for you, RR! You are now stronger and wiser from this difficult experience, which you have handled with dignity and maturity. Well done! M. You and Tara really kicked me in the rear the most haha I couldnt have done it without you and her 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 23, 2013 Author Share Posted April 23, 2013 Out of curiosity - how long has it been since you last spoke to your ex? Honestly I stopped keeping count but I think 4-5 months? Link to post Share on other sites
iouaname Posted April 23, 2013 Share Posted April 23, 2013 Honestly I stopped keeping count but I think 4-5 months? Oh, for some reason I thought that your breakup was more recent? I'm happy for you though that you are feeling better and moving on! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 23, 2013 Author Share Posted April 23, 2013 Oh, for some reason I thought that your breakup was more recent? I'm happy for you though that you are feeling better and moving on! No it happened back in Oct. Haha x/ First relationship and all...so it was very hard. But yeah ive recovered thanks iou I wish the same for you 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 23, 2013 Author Share Posted April 23, 2013 Finally became comfortable to get back onto Instagram Sadly a friend posted a pic with my ex in it...I unfollowed my friend... Its for the best I dont see him. Im over him, but seeing him just reminds me of the pain which makes me angry with him.....but not bitter...just that sort of feeling where I want nothing to do with him..i cant respect him and see him the same way anymore Haha i say im fine Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 26, 2013 Author Share Posted April 26, 2013 Feeling frustrsted today, scared, worried, and a bit insecure... Pm me anyone? Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted April 26, 2013 Author Share Posted April 26, 2013 Im feeling better today went out with some girlfriends last night and had a good time 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author RiceaRoni Posted May 4, 2013 Author Share Posted May 4, 2013 Hey everyone just checking in. Im great. Healed and loving life I came across the courage to check on my ex on Tumblr and I fel no pain.. Turns out he and his gf are still together and they're very sexually active..far more than he and i ever were....he calls it love.. But it seems that is what the relationship is mainly based upon He is also feeling conflicted at times...he "loves" his new gf but posts things like "I miss the old times" "I regret not saying anything" "I said things I never meant" "what if the one that got away came back?" Idk just things I saw when I decided to see how hes doing lol. .im far over him however and have no intentions of ever getting back.. 2 Link to post Share on other sites
McDonald Posted May 6, 2013 Share Posted May 6, 2013 Yayy!!! Good for you RR Dont worry about what he says and posts online.. they mean nothing. heres something that helps me: "God, grant me the strength to accept the things I cannot change, The courage to change the things I can, And wisdom to know the difference." Some things are just out of control and once we realize that, then we will come to realize that those things are not meant to be in our life. Maybe for a while, but there is something more out there waiting. Congrats RR youve made it!!!!!--- im almost there too, almost. 1 Link to post Share on other sites
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