What do I do now? Intense 10 month LDR...

[Arivan]

I already made a post about my situation but I am remaking it to be more clear.

 

Ahem...

 

So let me start with my story.. It goes back to April 1, 2012. I was playing Call of duty Black Ops on my Xbox and randomly met this girl online. We started joking around and ended up playing together for hours, flirting, joking around, having fun! It was honestly the best night I have ever had.

 

Well we didn't talk for a couple days, found out we both didn't want to seem desperate.. But we finally talked again and became friends! Only for a few days then we starting spending a lot of time together and we realized we were more then friends but didn't know what to call it. Over the course of a month we had a huge cyber crush on each other. April 23 we finally started dating online and were officially in a LDR. She lives in Arizona and I live in Vancouver. So many people doubted us, told us we are just wasting our time.. Even I had doubts that anything would come from this. Over time we fell in love online spending every moment we could with each other, learning everything about each other forming the deepest connection I have ever had with anything.. I finally fell in love with someone.. Yes my first love. I was her's too.

 

5 months later I was on a plane flying from Vancouver to Phoenix! We met, and we instantly fell in love harder then before! It was amazing and that week was the best week of my entire life, period. It was so magical.

 

But since that visit, things started getting hard. When you can only talk, and when you spend so much time together, and I mean 10+ hours talking every single day you start to lose a reason to communicate when you run out of things to talk about... You only able to talk about your day... :/ I also lost sight of how much I loved this girl. I was a dick, I did get mad sometimes, she wasn't all sunshine though she had problems but despite it all I loved her to death and would do anything for her and was trying to stick through this online stuff until she moved her. She was planning on moving her this year.

 

However, rewind a little bit, she came and visited me in December for 2 weeks and spent Christmas with my family and news years too! She said it was the best 2 weeks of her life! We are so happy in person! But when she left we went back to the dull online and we started arguing a lot. I started things, she did too.. We broke up a few times but only because she thought I wasn't happy.. We always got back together right away because I told her I was happy and things will change.. However, things never changed. :/ Idk why I just couldn't do it.. We both couldn't.

 

Well about a month ago.. She finally had enough, she reached her limit. She wasn't happy, she didn't want to continue with us on the road we were on. This time is was for real. She didn't want me back. I tried everything, everything I could! She wouldn't give me a chance to talk to her. We were broken up for three weeks and I know for a fact that with all the emotions I felt, all the crying, all the depressed feelings, all the thinking about us, all the thinking about my future, everything I want, what will make me happy. I know I actually finally changed and if she gave us another chance I would change. But she didn't want to be together anytime soon she told me..

 

I couldn't let it end like this. So I spent money on a plane ticket, I reserved a motel and told her I was coming down. I came down a week ago.. Well six days to be exact. I stayed for 3 days, on the third day I left 4:30 in the morning so it doesn't really count. However, the two days we spent she told me she had lot's of fun, she was happy I came down and she told me this "I still love you, I still care about you, and I really do miss you, but I can't find it in myself to come back." She also told me "I know for a fact I will want to come back but I don't know when, too bad there isn't a time machine to skip to when I will want too." She told me all this... We even had sex, she told me she still likes making me happy.. But when I get home we didn't talk, text, communicate.. Except for when I told her I was safe at home and she told me thank for coming I had fun and talk to you some other time... We already agreed we weren't going to talk for a while to give her some space and let her clear here head.

 

However, She removed me on Xbox, removed me on Skype, and pretty much deleted all forms of contact with me.. I still have her number but I don't get my she did this. I also know that she has an E-Crush on some other guy on Xbox, how could she do this too me.. I am willing to give my life for her and now she wants to keep me on the back burner to see if things will work out with this guy? That pisses me off. We haven't spoken since the day I landed at home. I don't plan on contacting her ever again. So if we speak she will be the one messaging me.

 

So my question is do I wait? How long? Do I just move on and focus on my new life without her? I am so confused how she can say all that but want absolutely nothing to do with me. That also makes no sense because before I came down she did tell me she wanted to stay friends because she doesn't want me out of her life because of out history. But I am totally out of her life right now. I am so confused and so sad all the time now.

 

Extra note:

She said she would marry me and we were planning on getting married so she would get citizenship in Canada faster when she moves here. She told me she wants to live with me. I still have the diamond ring.

[justwhoiam]

I'll copy and paste all the questions I typed in your other thread:

Have you removed all those girls from your facebook?

How often would you be able to meet up?

What's her friends/family's environment?

Also, besides being jealous, what did you argue about? I didn't get it. Sorry. Your story seemed rather confused about that point.

 

Anyway, how old are you both?

 

 

do I wait? How long? Do I just move on and focus on my new life without her? I am so confused

Wait for what? That she sees if she wants to be back with you?

First of all, try to be less desperate and more self-confident. The other guy coming into the picture might be just a consequence, in order to fill the gap... coming from the break up with you, or the cause. I cannot know, but chances are it's the former. If it's the latter, you can decide to wait and see. If it's the former:

1) see the cause of all the arguing

2) she's the one who's supposed to move, and she probably had second thoghts, having to leave family, friends, home...

3) you might want to do something if you really love her no matter what and don't want to lose her: show her, how far are you willing to go? Would you move for her?