inaya42 Posted May 3, 2013 Share Posted May 3, 2013 have you considered counseling? your pain after the breakup is totally typical. it is to be expected but it sounds like you have abandoned yourself competely. my ex ex partner cheated on me and left me for someone else. he actually brought her to my home to move his things out on the SAME DAY that he told me he was leaving. I was ruined, in such pain that my therapist said she couldn't bear to look at me in such anguish. I decided, based on his treatment of me, to let his a** go. and I did. it was the slowest, most terrible recovery ever but I'm so proud of myself for taking care of myself. for loving myself just a little more than I loved him. heal for you. please. fall in LOVE with you! Link to post Share on other sites
Author LoveB86 Posted May 3, 2013 Author Share Posted May 3, 2013 have you considered counseling? your pain after the breakup is totally typical. it is to be expected but it sounds like you have abandoned yourself competely. my ex ex partner cheated on me and left me for someone else. he actually brought her to my home to move his things out on the SAME DAY that he told me he was leaving. I was ruined, in such pain that my therapist said she couldn't bear to look at me in such anguish. I decided, based on his treatment of me, to let his a** go. and I did. it was the slowest, most terrible recovery ever but I'm so proud of myself for taking care of myself. for loving myself just a little more than I loved him. heal for you. please. fall in LOVE with you! I might just look into counseling. My work schedule just won't allow me to do counseling unless I can find someone that can stay open till late evening. I've abandoned myself, my friends, and my family. I don't call anyone nor text anyone anymore. That is why being NC helps me because I am excluding myself from the outside world to protect myself. My mindset is God first, me second and everyone else is non existant. Call me selfish as I am not sure what I am doing. I am just putting myself first over anyone and anything. Never done it before as I always been the one who cared for others more than myself. I am lost, confused, am unsure of what I am doing. I smile when I'm at work but that's about it. I don't talk to anyone anymore. I abandoned myself from everyone. All I do is exercise and have my headsets on about 85% of the time. Been listening to biblical scriptures and motivation speeches which is why I am functioning normal lately. As soon as I face the outside life (men, family, friends, people) I shut down fast and want nothing to do with anyone (no offense). Its my defense mechanism which is probably pushing alot of people away from me. But it is my way of putting God first and myself second. Do I feel crazy? No.. but I am not sure if I am doing the right thing. I meet a nice guy and instantly I believe he is a liar, cheater and player. I'll be nice to him, but that is about as far as I'll go. Will not exchange numbers as I refused to. I just am scared. I don't even go home till it's time to go to bed to avoid thinking of him. I just go to a friend's house and sit on his couch in the corner for hours listening on my headsets. I am not sure why? I don't know the days anymore. I am in a bubble everywhere I go. Link to post Share on other sites
Author LoveB86 Posted May 3, 2013 Author Share Posted May 3, 2013 Inaya42- I am sorry of what you went thru. Gosh I could just break down and cry.. how can anyone anyonee be so heartless! That sure was a horrible experience but am glad u got thru it. It just sucks back reality to me and lets me know I will be alright. I want to love myself more but don't want to find myself hurting anyone.. I just want to be alone from everybody. I just want to think of me and no one else right now. It's like I don't want anyone to make me feel good. I don't want anyone to ask me how my day is or to say hi. Ive completely abandoned me Link to post Share on other sites
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