Im unhappy again

[yessy21]

Its like a damn cycle.

 

I was okay for a few months and now im heavily depressed again.

 

i cant afford a therapist. (Just in case someone suggests)

 

Ive looked everywhere.

 

i have nothing to be unhappy about. I Have no IDEA why im depressed.

 

i feel tired, loss of appetite. my eyes get watery.

 

Im sitting at my job and all i want to do is run. run and take the first plane out of dodge. i want to go to a beach far from here and just lay down and rest. i dont care were i go as long as im alone. thats all i want... to be by myself. Is this normal?

 

 

Im supposed to feel fine. i have tried everything!

 

i juice daily.

exce. 4 times a week.

written in a journal (I burned that s**t, too much evidence)

 

My coworkers asked me today... are u okay u seem so sad.

 

Well duh... im depressed but i dont know why. ( no i didnt tell them that, i told them i was fine and ate my damn poptart for lunch)

 

Is this bad? i dont know what to do.

[Esoteric Elf]

Sorry, I haven't kept up with current events and know your posts. Why are you depressed? General depression? Depression from dating/sex/relationships?

 

I just grew so apathetic that I enjoy being who I am now. I revel in the fact that I am the worst of the worst, ugliest of the ugly, ****iest of the ****ty...you get the idea. Point is, no one cares. No one will care enough to act, but like who you are. Unique and without equal, you are a singular presence to the world, and there is plenty in this world to do. Look foward to things (as in setting goals, perhaps), and surround yourself with people of like mind.

 

And, as always, keep in good health, do good work and keep in touch.

[FitChick]

Do you spend time outside in the sun? You get vitamin D naturally from sunlight. You could have a deficiency. Most people do. Go to Trader Joe's and buy 1000 IU of Vitamin D3. Cheaper than antidepressants and no side effects.

[mammasita]

Look into vitamins and supplements: Sam-e, B complex.

 

Are you getting enough sleep?

[yessy21]

I fall asleep everyday around 10:30 pm and wake at 7 am naturally no alarm needed.

 

i dont actually go out in the sun as i am in my office from 830 to 5 and when i leave i get in the car... pickup my kid and go straight home for hw, dinner, and gym.

 

Ive been doing this new thing where i juice in the mornings. its supposed to be mineral rich so i can absorb the vitamins.

it was to my understanding that vitamin D can be consumed by juicing green plants.

 

I dont like this depression. Its like an overwhelming sadness. like if i cant do anything... all i want to do is get in bed and go to sleep and hope that its all over by the time i wake up.

 

this happens though, every couple of months.

Im completley against taking medication. those things can really mess you up.

[TaraMaiden]

Yeah, but you're messed up already.

 

Maybe you have a mental chemical imbalance.

I would suggest a complete medical.

We can all throw wonderful suggestions at you, but I think your depression will prevent you from following up.

It's a vicious circle.

 

 

 

Your problem may be because you are not getting enough of some component.

Or, to be honest - you may just have a depressive personality.

 

Like Eyore....

[Robert Z]

I fall asleep everyday around 10:30 pm and wake at 7 am naturally no alarm needed.

 

i dont actually go out in the sun as i am in my office from 830 to 5 and when i leave i get in the car... pickup my kid and go straight home for hw, dinner, and gym.

 

Ive been doing this new thing where i juice in the mornings. its supposed to be mineral rich so i can absorb the vitamins.

it was to my understanding that vitamin D can be consumed by juicing green plants.

 

I dont like this depression. Its like an overwhelming sadness. like if i cant do anything... all i want to do is get in bed and go to sleep and hope that its all over by the time i wake up.

 

this happens though, every couple of months.

Im completley against taking medication. those things can really mess you up.

 

You might try taking some Benadryl for a few days and see if that helps. Allergies can manifest as depression. I used to get depressed every spring until I realized it was the result of allergies. But it does seem to take a few days to clear the histamines from your body, so you can't just take one or two and expect results.

 

It could be thyroid problems. It could be a blood sugar problem.

[yessy21]

Guys,

 

I took a 4 day vacation.

 

I got a 2 full days out in the beach, alone.

 

Also, i stopped eating icecream, and i feel BRand Spanking NEW.

 

My life is full of light again.

 

i have noticed though that taking sugary stuff out of my daily eating i dont feel so sluggish.

 

being out in the sun also felt really really good.

 

and i believe that i might have some type of imbalance caused by stress.

 

it had been too long since i took a couple of days to myself.

 

I think that we should all have a break from our lives once in a while.

[Giraffe1]

Guys,

 

I took a 4 day vacation.

 

I got a 2 full days out in the beach, alone.

 

Also, i stopped eating icecream, and i feel BRand Spanking NEW.

 

My life is full of light again.

 

i have noticed though that taking sugary stuff out of my daily eating i dont feel so sluggish.

 

being out in the sun also felt really really good.

 

and i believe that i might have some type of imbalance caused by stress.

 

it had been too long since i took a couple of days to myself.

 

I think that we should all have a break from our lives once in a while.

Glad you are doing better . Life is full of ups and downs. As long as we make it though the lows we can enjoy the highs.

[M30USA]

OP, do you have close family or friends?

[yessy21]

OP, do you have close family or friends?

 

 

Well, I have a brother and sister. you cant really call us close though.

 

we all network differently.

 

My brother thinks im weird, and a jew.

 

My sister thinks im a babysitter.

 

friend.. yes i do. i have a really close friend that i have known for a long long time.

[yessy21]

Yeah, but you're messed up already.

 

Maybe you have a mental chemical imbalance.

I would suggest a complete medical.

We can all throw wonderful suggestions at you, but I think your depression will prevent you from following up.

It's a vicious circle.

 

 

 

Your problem may be because you are not getting enough of some component.

Or, to be honest - you may just have a depressive personality.

 

Like Eyore....

 

 

If i go to the doctor ... he will try to send me to the behavioral center or medication and then what will happen is that i will get drug tested every week and i would have to pay a ridicolous amount of money to talk to a girl about how much i hate paying for a drug test every week when i am not on drugs. and then she usually asks me where i got my shoes from and the cycle will go on. ( Been there) 1 year and a lot of money later... i realised that i paid her to talk about how my closet is full of NINE WEST shoes and bags.

 

if i stradegize right... i can try to take a couple of days off every 4 months or so... when i feel like its about to start. I know my depression is about to hit when i start crying bymyself in the car.

 

 

i still cant believe i was that 'lucky' sperm.