LoneStar49 Posted September 20, 2004 Share Posted September 20, 2004 Thought I'd throw this in here for a bit of humor. Maybe not humor. I don't know what to call it. Probably not the appropriate forum, exactly, but maybe others have similar situations. OK...NC for going on two weeks and I feel like I am literally dying inside. Sometimes I think I can literally feel each individual cell gasping for it's last breath. In the meantime, I have been a smoker for...well, essentially since birth since all of my relatives smoked and I started at a very early age. And frankly, I've always really enjoyed smoking and never really wanted to stop other than due to societal pressures. But even that wasn't enough to make me really want to stop. Then, too, one of my hang-ups is getting fat and no offense to those that are overweight - we all have our hang-ups. Some of you that might be overweight may hate smoking/smokers as much as I hate fat. Anyway...yesterday, I ran out of cigarettes. I don't think there is a time in my entire life I have run out of cigarettes. Ever. I always have spare packs. Always! But I didn't yesterday. And you know, for some reason, I thought, what the hell. I'm going to quit. Just like that. Washed the ashtrays, put them in the garage. And just sat here. It's been almost 24 hours now. Early this AM was kind of bad, but I went for a walk and drank some water. As strange as it may seem, my attitude is along the lines of nothing could hurt me more or cause me more stress than what has been taking place. Since I'm already about as miserable as I can be, why not go the full monty? As for the weight...well, I've lost 13 pounds in the last two weeks and didn't need to lose it in the first place. So, if I gain weight, whatever.... Have any of ya'll given up any *bad* habits while in the process of giving up your special person? If so, why? Were your feelings at all similar to mine as in "what the hell?" Link to post Share on other sites
MMBastard Posted September 20, 2004 Share Posted September 20, 2004 I'm considering quittin' smoking but doubt it'll happen. But yes, similar experience.......... Link to post Share on other sites
Author LoneStar49 Posted September 20, 2004 Author Share Posted September 20, 2004 Originally posted by MMBastard I'm considering quittin' smoking but doubt it'll happen. But yes, similar experience.......... So what is the "similar" experience? Link to post Share on other sites
MMBastard Posted September 20, 2004 Share Posted September 20, 2004 The "What the Hell" attitude. Plus I also now have the opportunity to move away as a career prospect.....however, I have a kid that I wanna be close to so............ Link to post Share on other sites
EC Posted September 20, 2004 Share Posted September 20, 2004 Actually I gained the bad habits first...then reconstructed myself. When I first lost my special person I was depressed and young, and out of control. I got into drugs nothing hardcore just marijuana and cigarrettes. I went downhill and it was bad. I was really out of control. Then one day I snapped out of it. See I thought without him I was nothing. I lost myself and had to find myself again. I quit everything...started going to the gym, working out everyday...I started school, and looked for a job. I had chopped off my hair lol and so I let it grow out. Now I have an awesome body;) , going to school, an excellent job and great new bf. Life is good. Why NC what happened? Link to post Share on other sites
Author LoneStar49 Posted September 20, 2004 Author Share Posted September 20, 2004 Good for you, EtEr! I told someone on Saturday - I wish my hair was long so I could get it cut short. I've been working out a whole bunch, too, but not because I know it's good for me but because I'm looking for the endorphin effect. So in a sense, you could say I'm drugging myself, but I'm just using natural drugs. I don't know if it is helping, but I'm still alive so I have to believe it is. As for why the NC? If you could come up with that answer, I'd pay you $10,000,000.00 bucks. Or $10.00. Fact is, I haven't any idea. You can read the beginning by clicking here and reading the thread. Any comments would be appreciated. Link to post Share on other sites
tiki Posted September 20, 2004 Share Posted September 20, 2004 Congrats on quitting smoking. You smell better. I can tell from here. Link to post Share on other sites
Author LoneStar49 Posted September 20, 2004 Author Share Posted September 20, 2004 Originally posted by tikibrandy Congrats on quitting smoking. You smell better. I can tell from here. LOL!! Silly!! But seriously...no congratulations, please. It's only been just 24 hours and I have years to go before we'll know for certain that I've quit. However, I will say this...I'm having serious cravings for a cigarette, but...and I know this makes no sense at all...but no desire to smoke one. It's almost like there is a total disconnect between my brain and my body. I hope the brain wins. Link to post Share on other sites
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