nothurtanymore Posted September 24, 2004 Share Posted September 24, 2004 People, it took me a year to get over this wrong story. Year of hell,confusion, anger, depression, false hopes,broken dreams, ups and downs...and I tried everything, from no contact and hate to being friends,even to be with him few times again...and now being with him for last time ( so I decided) i found out that I do not even find him that great anymore!!!!! And if I look back, my past 2 years I realize how stupid I was to waste my time on someone like him. He never really loved me, he just played with me....and most sad thin of all...he does not even love his wife. He does not even love himself. And thank you for all your posts.It helped me a lot to read them even if I never wrote my story...but trust me all your stories look like mine...we were on same boat. Now after a year of struggling I start to feel better and go out and have fun...but most important thing I started to have self-respect again. thank you folks....and remember...one day you`will just wake up and some morning rain will wash away your pain....trust me Link to post Share on other sites
LoneStar49 Posted September 24, 2004 Share Posted September 24, 2004 Originally posted by nothurtanymore thank you folks....and remember...one day you`will just wake up and some morning rain will wash away your pain....trust me I'm happy for you! Right now, I'm waiting for rain. Link to post Share on other sites
izzybelle Posted September 24, 2004 Share Posted September 24, 2004 rain!!! yes, i need it to wash away all of this sh** that i've covered myself in! funny though when talking to a friend about a month ago and after giving her the condensed and edited for prime time version of my affair with my MM (she's really, really catholic) her response to me was that it was time for the sun to shine on me. that i'd had enough clouds and rain and it was time for the sun to shine. but... in order for there to be one of those beautiful rainbows both conditions need to exist. god's way of allowing us to see the good in everythihg? ok, i'm not a religious person and can't believe i said that but.... maybe true. in order to see and appreciate the good, we need to see and feel the bad. so... enough of the bad stuff it's time for the good! sad thing was, my life has been hell for the past few years. bad divorce, cancer and a host of other crap. thought my MM was my rainbow. turns out he was just the proverbial pot of gold that i hoped was there and even was convinced i'd seen, but when i reached out to take hold of it and make it mine, it disappeared like a mirage. so for many of us, we have a long road ahead. a lot of pain, a lot of healing and a lot of difficult decisions. i think whoever it was that originally said no pain no gain, should be shot! Link to post Share on other sites
nothurtanymore Posted September 24, 2004 Share Posted September 24, 2004 so for many of us, we have a long road ahead. a lot of pain, a lot of healing and a lot of difficult decisions. i think whoever it was that originally said no pain no gain, should be shot i agree Link to post Share on other sites
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