Blackmanx Posted October 2, 2004 Share Posted October 2, 2004 I am a young man who spent a lot of time being confused about a lot of things. During my senior year of high school, I became aware that I had a sexual and emotional attraction to women AND men !!! It scared me. I was so scared. I was raised by a religious black family and taught that homosexuality was wrong. I met a beautiful girl named Jessica and fell in love. Our relationship was okay but she didnt love me and I couldnt love myself because of my insecurities. I had a relationship with a guy named Sean and he opened my eyes to a lot of things but I got so scared that I ended it quickly due to my internalized homophobia. I left my hometown and came to Boston. I enrolled in college. I met a girl named Lauren and felt attracted to her. That was great !!!! We had a relationship. I also had a relationship with a boy named Karl....one of my best friends. Both relationships taught me a lot of things and brought me a lot of pleasure as well as pain. The result is that now, as I begin my second year of college, I can honestly say that I am bisexual and not at all ashamed of it. I've told a couple of people and they are okay with it. Maybe someday, I will tell my family. I am grateful to God for allowing me to accept myself at last. Link to post Share on other sites
Guisi Posted October 2, 2004 Share Posted October 2, 2004 How are you Accpecting myself I am a female. I have had several male friends who had an attractions to men as well as women. What type of feeling do you expericence being wiht anohter man. Sorry for being so bold. I'm just !!! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Blackmanx Posted October 2, 2004 Author Share Posted October 2, 2004 I don't know. I like a guy's way of thinking, sense of humor and how we can relate to each other better. In a girl, I usually like her looks but it's not often that I like her mind. This past year, I was having a great time, though. I had two relationships at once. One was with my best pal Karl. He was cool, masculine, confident and nice. We totally understood and respected each other. The other relationship was with Lauren. We could relate to each other as well. I cared for them both. Both relationships ended and I am now single, though. That's just how I am. I like what I like. When walking around, I check out the beautiful women just like every guy does. My eyes occasionally look at the handsome men too. I've always been that way. Link to post Share on other sites
whichwayisup Posted October 2, 2004 Share Posted October 2, 2004 BM, It's good to hear that you are confident in yourself and have learned to accept you as YOU. That's really cool and sounds like you're happy. I guess with every relationship, good and bad, we learn more about ourselves and grow from the experience. Obviously both relationships had a huge impact on you and made you who you are now!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Guisi Posted October 3, 2004 Share Posted October 3, 2004 Hi Blackmanx, I don't have anything against how a person lives their life, as long as they are not causes pain to them selfs, or to others. Each day is a new beginning, so live each as day as if it were your last. Be happy being you!! Link to post Share on other sites
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