aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 sometimes, you just friggin' miss that person. even when you shouldn't. out of habit? even when you know they don't miss you. you shouldn't care. yet you do. some day... hopefully soon. the caring ends. the wondering ends. ignorance will eventually be bliss. this roller coaster sucks. this is why I avoid amusement parks. roller coasters don't amuse me. jigsaw puzzles do. I want off this ride. right. now. before I puke. before I lose control. Link to post Share on other sites
BustedUpInside Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 You don't have to turn yourself into a robot! You seem like a very nice person and so I would assume that caring about people comes very naturally to you. In my opinion, for whatever it is worth , I don't think that you need to completely forget about your ex and never think about them again. What you really need to do is just change the way you think about them. Instead of obsessing about how much you miss them and how much they do or don't miss you, you should be thinking about how you hope that they have a nice life and that they are happy. You should care. You invested a lot of time into this person and it would be silly to expect you to just shut off the emotions all at once. However, you can't keep torturing yourself by making them the center of your thoughts. You should definitely care about yourself more, but you can still have concern for your ex. You are doing ok. Everyone has bad nights where you wonder if they cared at all. Trust me, they did. Mind did. Yours did. They probably still do, but you can't really know, so just try to think good thoughts for yourself first and if you have any to spare then send some good thoughts to the ex 2 Link to post Share on other sites
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 It's certainly a roller coaster ride from Hell, but I think it's impossible to get off the ride once it starts. You have to "ride out' these crappy waves until eventually, the ride comes to an end. I know my ride hasn't stopped yet, but I know I've made it past some scary twists and bends. A year later and its finally slowing down. We all have those "sigh" moments, especially during the quiet time, when your mind runs free. Hang on, the rides gonna stop 3 Link to post Share on other sites
Author aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Author Share Posted May 28, 2013 I'm approaching that stage of anger. Not sure I'll be able to resist writing him one hell of an angry email at some point soon. That I know will do no good. Because apparently he all of a sudden didn't give a ****. I'm so f'ng hurt and pissed off. No explanation. No nothing. Yet, I shouldn't be surprised considering how our relationship went and how I didn't give much until we were approaching the end. So angry at myself. DAMNIT. Meanwhile, unless I'm distracted and not at home, I think about him all the time. It's killing me on the inside. I can't take this. I have never in my life had a breakup like this. Absolute freaking radio silence from a man that at one time cared more about me than I him. I guess this is pay back. Or I was right... when I told him, we don't know each other at all. One week later, he broke up with me. THE FRICKIN END. Link to post Share on other sites
Author aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Author Share Posted May 28, 2013 Obviously, I'm not in a good headspace. I don't like this space in my head. So annoyed. Writing here so I don't write him. Never have I felt this weak before. Link to post Share on other sites
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 You're having an extremely bad moment, but thats all it is, and it will pass. The waves of what you're feeling get just a tiny bit weaker, millimeter by millimeter everytime they crash. I know, the waves are still crashing for me a year later, but they're not NEARLY as destructive as a year ago. Keep posting here everytime you feel like you wanna email or text. It helps tremendously! 2 Link to post Share on other sites
TaraMaiden Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 Yo! Ma bitch, Whatcha doin' gurl?? PM me. We'll exchange emails and bitch together..... M'kay....?? 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Author Share Posted May 28, 2013 Yo! Ma bitch, Whatcha doin' gurl?? PM me. We'll exchange emails and bitch together..... M'kay....?? Hmmm, I'm a little 'fraid of you at the moment. I was all.... "ah ****, here comes Tara..." only to be like, "Young Lady, PM me." I feel like I was just called into the headmistress's office. *sob* 1 Link to post Share on other sites
TaraMaiden Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 Hmmm, I'm a little 'fraid of you at the moment. I was all.... "ah ****, here comes Tara..." only to be like, "Young Lady, PM me." I feel like I was just called into the headmistress's office. *sob* LMAO!! 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Author Share Posted May 28, 2013 LMAO!! Yes. EXACTLY. Link to post Share on other sites
cavalier99 Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 Just ride it out. There are endless curves and loops and ups an downs on the roller coaster. The key is not to unfasten seat belt and fall out before ride ends. Suck it up. These are the moments that make you stronger and get you thru to the otherside and off the ride eventually. Rock on! Cav Link to post Share on other sites
Leigh 87 Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 I want to puke every time I get urges to contact him yet know I can't. I want his life to be of no concern to mine but I am far off this stage. I block him out of my mind by thinking of other things which helps. Occasionally though I cannot avoid sinking really deeply into my seat and being overwhelmed with a seriously heavy feeling that stops me from getting up from my seat. At least your closer than me to the end goal since you have done what you need to do, NC, for longer than I have. Link to post Share on other sites
Leigh 87 Posted May 28, 2013 Share Posted May 28, 2013 I'm approaching that stage of anger. Not sure I'll be able to resist writing him one hell of an angry email at some point soon. That I know will do no good. Because apparently he all of a sudden didn't give a ****. I'm so f'ng hurt and pissed off. No explanation. No nothing. Yet, I shouldn't be surprised considering how our relationship went and how I didn't give much until we were approaching the end. So angry at myself. DAMNIT. Meanwhile, unless I'm distracted and not at home, I think about him all the time. It's killing me on the inside. I can't take this. I have never in my life had a breakup like this. Absolute freaking radio silence from a man that at one time cared more about me than I him. I guess this is pay back. Or I was right... when I told him, we don't know each other at all. One week later, he broke up with me. THE FRICKIN END. Yes. ****kk them. There is an anger stage? oh boy..... Link to post Share on other sites
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