thefooloftheyear Posted May 30, 2013 Share Posted May 30, 2013 I also feel I did not allow myself to mourn the emotional and physical aspects. I was thrown into love or hate drive due to circumstances. I did care at one time I believe. Not too sure. He was not a narcissist though, (have been there and done that, lesson learned) which would have made it easier by deafening degrees. I will at times group him as one because it makes it easier to recall and deal with my emotions. Please accept my apologies...I am sure you are a lovely woman and didnt deserve to be lied to or deceived. I guess I just quarrel with those who think that entering into an EMA and knowing that the person is M that the OW/OM should be somehow unwilling "victims" to anything that might happen... Heck, for all you know he could have been "out" of his marriage when he met you, then when reality set in that he actually had to leave, he just couldnt. Kids, finances, whatever...The story has been told a million times...It doesnt matter.. I wish you well, I sincerely do.. TFY Link to post Share on other sites
ComingInHot Posted May 30, 2013 Share Posted May 30, 2013 greysky wrote, "So he took the opportunity to stab me in the heart again, twist everything back into how horrible I've treated him and stomp all over me on his way back out the door. I'm such an idiot. This pain starts all over again now. I'm right back to where I was in march." GreySky, I am SO sorry you are going through this, AGAIN!!! It is NOT okay. None of it. It's hard for me sometimes because in cases like with YOU, I genuinely like you and see that you are a good person. A's are just so awful and conflicting. I don't agree with Anything that you've done BUT because I like you, I can't stand reading how heartbroken you are! Clearly, you don't "know" me and vise versa and could probably care less especially because I am the W of a MM that cheated. Just KNOW without a doubt how much good I pray enters your life going forward!! And for a faster healing. Remember to give yourself a hug and while you are untwisting the pretzel that you say you have become, get rid of those knots that are keeping you from being who you want to be* CIH 1 Link to post Share on other sites
Author GreySkyMorning Posted May 30, 2013 Author Share Posted May 30, 2013 He actually helped me last night with dealing with this. Right after I posted this, he messaged me. There was something I had told him in confidence while we were trying to be friends. It was something very personal that I wasn't proud of at all, but he wanted to hear about it. I had told him I didnt really want to tell him because my biggest fear was that he would throw it back in my face and use it against me. So when he messaged me after I posted this, it was to tell me how hard he had tried to be my friend and kept getting slapped by me and that he even had to listen to me tell him about that one thing. I was furious and I think, rightfully so. I went off on him about what kind of man he is. This morning, I woke up to a text apologizing for it and saying he was just angry and thats why he said that. I KNEW I should have just ignored it, but I ended up replying anyway. In the end, he really wasnt apologizing. It was all about not wanting to look like the bad guy. It showed me exactly who he is and what he is capable of doing to someone he claimed to love. But I already knew that, didnt I? Link to post Share on other sites
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