Time to get back out there?

[J_L_C]

Many of you know my relationship ended 10 months ago and I have been a wreck for most of that time. A few months after we split, I decided to get myself out on some dates. Of course, it was too soon and I decided to take more time for myself. After a few more months, I decided to try again and same results. Too soon. I have been taking things small baby steps at a time. I'm not actively searching at this moment, but I do have a date this weekend. Here's why I am worried...

 

I tend to feel anxious with new guys because of the happiness I felt in my last relationship. I start out the date quite open minded and optimistic, but then a wave of sadness washes over me and my head just isn't in it anymore. It's not that I'm "comparing" my ex to my date, but it just reminds me of all the hurt I've been through and that I am quite literally back to starting from scratch. It's such an overwhelming feelings and sometimes I just don't know if I'll ever have that motivation to really find someone again.

 

I'm quite curious about this guy I have a date with though, and once again, I am going in with an open mind. It's just so hard starting over. I'm not looking forward to the small talk and the "dance".

 

I'm worried that the same feelings will come over me and then I'll start telling myself there is just no point in ever trying again.