LilGirlandOW Posted June 17, 2013 Share Posted June 17, 2013 A song that makes me sad everytime I hear it, especially the live version, wow Me looking at him and his married life from..... the outside, Outside - by Staind And you Can bring me to my knees Again All the times That I could beg you please In vain All the times That I felt insecure For you And I leave My burdens at the door But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I felt like this won't end Was for you And I taste What I could never have It's from you All those times That I tried My intentions Full of pride And I waste More time than anyone But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you See to the real you All the times That I've cried All that's wasted It's all inside But I feel All this pain Stuffed it down It's back again And I lie Here in bed All alone I can't mend And I feel Tomorrow will be okay But I'm on the outside I'm looking in I can see through you See your true colors Cause inside you're ugly You're ugly like me I can see through you Link to post Share on other sites
Author LilGirlandOW Posted June 17, 2013 Author Share Posted June 17, 2013 I am struggling lately, I feel so lost and alone cause who can you talk about to about being in an A, its sad cause my family know I'm seeing somebody just not the whole story, and I'm sad cause everything "I want" is fighting inside me cause I want him, I want peace, I want someone all the time, I want the love I (think/assume) we share, I want free of living the lie... I'm like a drug addict is how I feel cause I dont know how to not want him.. Link to post Share on other sites
Author LilGirlandOW Posted June 17, 2013 Author Share Posted June 17, 2013 if he left his marraige today i would be very happy to be with him, and as much as we talk, text and hang out. its becoming a very lonely situation for me. and we started as boss/employee at the same company. i resigned to protect his job, i miss my old co-workers.... i feel like somedays i just need a hobby to occupy my mind and other days i worry ill miss a text if im off doing yoga, then theres the rest of the day i feel i need a labotomy to cut his presence out of my mind. thank you for your kind words and support Link to post Share on other sites
tryingto Posted June 17, 2013 Share Posted June 17, 2013 LilGirl, I am so very sorry you are struggling right now. I can remember feeling the exact same way towards the end of my A and I KNOW it is a lonely, sad place to be. I don't have much advice other than to be honest with yourself if your relationship is no longer "working" for you and talk with your MM. Regardless of whether or not you talk with him about your feelings, please start living your life and don't let him be the center of your world (as LFH said). Please take care of yourself and so many of us are here if you need us... 1 Link to post Share on other sites
sybo24 Posted June 17, 2013 Share Posted June 17, 2013 Sending you big hugs and the knowledge that things will get better. Well that's what I am hoping Link to post Share on other sites
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