My self-esteem is in intensive care.

[bob the brave]

A girl I liked called me a good guy and then literally ran from me when I showed interest. She made short jokes and said I couldn't help how i was born.

 

Then she hooked up with a player who literally got right up in my face in private one day and said, "I ****** her and there is nothing you can do about it." I was always nice to this guy. He had no call to do this except stroke his ego.

 

Finally, she got married and knocked up to a guy she only knew 5 months. I knew her for 3 years. I had to sit at the same small table at a small social event with them. It was very painful.

 

Watching a girl I liked, insult me, **** a guy who literally gets up in my face about it and then watch her marry and have a child with a guy so fast has thrown my self-esteem in a wood chipper.

 

How can a person be so humiliated and survive? I am still in nots about this 2 years later. This all might be ok, but I am really a good, caring guy. It just seems so unjust.

 

I want my life back, but this seems to have scarred me forever.

[spiderowl]

I know you like this girl, but your post says an awful lot about her that is not good. She seems to have poor taste in guys. What else can I say? You are idealising this girl when she doesn't sound right for you anyway. Don't judge yourself because she goes for the wrong sort of guys. That's no reflection on you, in fact you could take it as a compliment. It's not going to do her much good in the long run.