PrinceAli94 Posted June 25, 2013 Share Posted June 25, 2013 I'm losing sight of what I want to be, which in itself is a blur. My motivation is based on a mere whim. I try to be an ambitious person but can't quite find my calling. Have you ever felt so sad everything around you appears bleak? Even the most beautiful things. I can't get up to go to look for work any more, I can't imagine going back to school, when I was enrolled I didn't want to leave bed. I've been burying feelings of depression for years now, and I'm only 19. It's so hard to explain how it feels, like your cold inside, but at the same time your not. I'm sick. Feels ominous, in the gut of your soul, swallowing you up by the minute. I'm fighting a losing battle. I keep trying because my parents care, and my brother and sister do too. I don't want them to feel anguish over myself letting go, but it hurts so much. I can't feel anything else. I want to let go and feel nothing. I don't have the money for therapy, and my parents are struggling enough, I don't want to have to ask them for it, and add the knowledge of my struggle to their list of concerns. I need someone to say something, anything that will help me. I can hardly type this properly. Life can be so nice, but that's honestly what scares me the most, the potential of it all, you know? I can't quite reach a point of contentedness, and that feeling entrenched in me, it keeps saying to just give up and leave this place. Link to post Share on other sites
Lobouspo Posted June 25, 2013 Share Posted June 25, 2013 Please get help. You have family members that love and care for you. Reach out to them. If you have religion, spirituality, or God in your life, lean there. Also many free hotlines and resources on the internet which can direct you to help in your area. Hang in there...remember life is a marathon, not a sprint. My prayers are with you. Link to post Share on other sites
Ed the 3rd Posted June 25, 2013 Share Posted June 25, 2013 Could be worse. You could have a tumor that makes your scrotum weigh ten stone. Link to post Share on other sites
Ripnet Posted June 26, 2013 Share Posted June 26, 2013 Ask yourself this question. What is great about your life now? If you say nothing... What could you be great about your life right now? Ask intent of getting answers. If you come up a list then you should write them down. Now do this on a daily basis and you will change your attitude. Link to post Share on other sites
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