What should I do?

[Amox]

So, best to start, I think, is to give a short summary of the relationship I had with my ex.

 

It started out really passionate, we called and chatted through MSN and IRC, but never saw each other in real life yet. She didn't exactly live next door, and still had a boyfriend back then. Without ever seeing each other, we eventually fell in love with each other.

 

She broke up with her boyfriend, a day later I visited her at her place and we kissed within the first 5 seconds that we saw each other in real life. We loved each other really intensely. That's one of the reasons our relationship lasted for about a year and a half, although it started going wrong already after a month or 4, mainly because of my fault.

 

I had some stuff from my past still dragging with me, and because of that, I really started to act possesive, jealous, etc...Mainly quite the opposite from what I was the first 4 months of our relationship. Eventually our relationship had become unbearable: we had arguments constantly, but never wanted to break up because we loved each other so much. At last, she broke up with me (can't blame her), not with the intention of a final break up, just for a long term pause.

 

Again, because of my stupid behaviour (kept calling her when she didn't want to get called, got really drunk in front of her, etc...), I blew that one too. We lost each other because of the distance, and she got a new relationship. That's about a year and a half ago.

 

We've had contact through the internet now and then, nothing deep or frequent. I took some therapy to deal with the mess from my past, started a few hobbies to keep busy and to get over her. It wasn't easy, because, in my eyes, she's like a goddess, but I pretty much managed.

 

At least, that's what I thought. The last 2 months we've run into each other quite some times (partly accidental, partly because we both went to college at the same city). Everytime we meet, I'm starting to consider more and more to give it another try, although she once claimed that "that wouldn't ever happen again".

 

Also, the contact through internet has intensified. When we talk in real life, she smiles at me like all the time (which isn't something she did earlier). At first I thought it was my imagination, because I wanted it so badly. But then even some friends, who saw us talking and laughing with each other, said to me that this was definately not just "being friendly."

 

Then again, I met her current boyfriend last week, whom she has been with for the last 7 months (she never mentioned him or having a boyfriend at all untill I saw him last week). But even with her boyfriend around, she still talks more to me than she does to him.

 

So, I'm wondering if there's still a chance things are going to work out between us.

 

Although she has a boyfriend, we both intensified contact with each other and even start to hang out sometimes. I don't want to fall back in unrequited love again, which I was after our breakup, but everytime I meet her that love is increasing again. I'm just wondering if I should break all contact (which is kind of difficult when living in the same city) or just act like a friend (thus ignoring my growing feelings) and see how things turn out eventually?

[Amox]

Sorry for the lack of spacings, and I realize the title could have been better too, but I had to type fast