YellowLioness Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 Well, I have some bad news concerning the baby: I'm leaking ambiotic fluid, and the doctor doesn't know how long I will be able to "keep" the baby. I was having cramps, and my mom made me an apointment for her doctor on Saturday, early in the morning. They found that I was farther along then what I origionally thought, and that I haden't been "showing" because of the lack of fluid. I asked him what could be done, and he said he'd have to test the fluid itself to see if there was anything that coudl be done. He said that if things continued like they were I'd probably lose the baby with in a week or so. I asked him also if there was anything that I did to cause it, and he said "no." He said that sometimes there is a problem with the fetus itself, and that this just could be my body's way of rejecting it. I told him that I quit smoking totally, and that I haden't had anything to drink in 3 weeks (even before I knew I was pregnant). He said it was good that I had stopped doing all of those things, but that it would make little difference. I asked him if I should take more vitamins, and he said again, "It won't make much of a difference at this point." I don't know why God gives, then takes away. I've been praying, but no answers come. It's hard to put this in perspective. I don't know how to cope with this. I'm going to go to counciling this week. Link to post Share on other sites
Moose Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 YL, Mrs. Moose and I have been throught this....I'm so sorry that this is happening to you. We will be praying for your peace..... Link to post Share on other sites
Author YellowLioness Posted October 18, 2004 Author Share Posted October 18, 2004 thank you Faye dearest and Moose. I need prayers. It's so confusing and painful. Link to post Share on other sites
Dakini Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 Yellow: Though its no consolation, your doctor is right in saying that miscarriages, esp. this early, are generally a result of an abnormal / ailing fetus. I am new to LS but I have been following your other posts - I was sharing in your happiness earlier, and now I share in your sorrow... I am thinking of you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author YellowLioness Posted October 18, 2004 Author Share Posted October 18, 2004 Thank you Dakini, *hugs* Its like...logically I understand that genetics arent' always perfect. I know that there is probably something wrong with it enough to where it couldn't survive outside of the womb even if I could carry it to term. But, the emotional aspect of dealing with the fact that I'm carrying a sick baby is unreal. It almost makes me feel less of a person, even though I KNOW it's no one's fault, least of all my own. Link to post Share on other sites
Artifact Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 Take care of yourself YL! I'm sorry you had such good news followed by such bad news. We'll all be thinking about you, your fiance and your baby. You are lucky to have a supportive partner, and I hope counseling will help you out too! Artifact Link to post Share on other sites
Moose Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 YL, It's our belief that our little girl is now watching over and protecting us. Mrs. Moose has been going to theology classes and it's pretty neat stuff. Although she's, (the baby we lost), not classified as an, "angel".....she is able to see us and protect us to a certain extend....you very well may have a angelic spirit preparing to battle for you too. Your baby isn't at an age of accountability so it's clear where he/she is going to wind up. Incidently....when our spirits go to heaven, even in infancy, you're blessed with a glorified body....so he/she will have a full grown body with all the knowledge exceeding over us men and women. And will also have the ability to fend off evil. Maybe God needed you....YOU to help him to create this being for His purposes. Imagine that! Little ole you helping the heavenly hosts go to battle! Link to post Share on other sites
Fayebelle Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 You are beautiful Listen to the man YL- you know he's a smart cookie. Link to post Share on other sites
EC Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 Hey baby.. I really feel your sorrow Yellow..but you know how I feel... Things happen and we don't understand why but then we see the light u know? I just want you to know IT"S NOT YOUR FAULT.....Your beautiful and you are not less of a person because of this.. Maybe it just wasn't the right time for you.... I will continue praying for you as I have been and dont worry everything will be ok and you will come out of this a little bit stronger. * *HUGSS** Link to post Share on other sites
Author YellowLioness Posted October 18, 2004 Author Share Posted October 18, 2004 That makes me feel better, Moose. Maybe God does have a plan for the little one. Faye...you're amazing. Thank you, too. I'm sure one day that I'll understand all of this better. Hopefully. *hugs* EC Link to post Share on other sites
Matilda Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 Oh goodness, I am so sorry! I have had 2 miscarriages myself, and know how absolutely devastating it is. In my first miscarriage, I went for my first ultrasound, and they couldn't find a hearbeat. It just absolutely crushes you. You go from that tremendous high, to absolute despair in a moment's time. You are strong, and you can get through this. Rely on your faith, and give yourself over to it. That is all you can do. Hugs to you, and I will be thinking of you, and praying for you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author YellowLioness Posted October 18, 2004 Author Share Posted October 18, 2004 Yeah, it's really hard. I've been praying non-stop. Link to post Share on other sites
HokeyReligions Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 I'm so sorry YL, I've lost children and miscarried and I understand the emotional rollercoaster you are on. It's not easy, but you WILL get through this. Peace to you sweetie & lots of cyber hugs. Link to post Share on other sites
Barby Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 I too am soooooooooooo sorry *hugs* I will be praying for you as well! I'm sorry that anyone ever has to go through losing a child, it is devastating but as most have said, for some reason or another everything happens for a reason. I'm sorry for your suffering and will have you in my prayers! Link to post Share on other sites
Author YellowLioness Posted October 18, 2004 Author Share Posted October 18, 2004 Thanks Hokey and Barbie. *big hugs* to both of you. Thanks for your support. Link to post Share on other sites
Barby Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 No need to thank, that's what we all are here for, to support in the time of need as well as advising... I'm sure you're in the heart of all who've read your post. Link to post Share on other sites
tiki Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 I am sorry for your pain and suffering. I'm thinking of you often. You are very strong. ***HUGE HUGS*** Link to post Share on other sites
Naive Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 My prayers will also be with you. Many, many, many hugs to you. Everything happens for a reason even if sometimes we do not understand what those reasons are. Have faith. We will all be here for you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author YellowLioness Posted October 18, 2004 Author Share Posted October 18, 2004 OH, big hugs you guys. Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. I keep you in mine. Link to post Share on other sites
Merin Posted October 18, 2004 Share Posted October 18, 2004 YL... I am so very sorry... You're also in my thoughts... There is really nothing I can say that can make this any easier for you.. just know that you are obvioulsy so well loved and cared for YL.. and I hope you will allow others to carry you when you need it. Take care sweetie. Link to post Share on other sites
catindahat Posted October 26, 2004 Share Posted October 26, 2004 Ohmygosh, im so sorry! It's good everyone has prayers for you. Your mom is helping which is good You will have my blessings to baby and you I wish you the bestest and greatest and goodest luckiest luck ever! Link to post Share on other sites
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