iloveyourway Posted July 9, 2013 Share Posted July 9, 2013 I joined here because I am looking for alike situations, advice, something. I fell in love with a man who lives quite a few hundred miles from me. I've known him for some time now, and I kept and keep trying to find reasons to be mad at him so I can engulf my heart with hatred. He is aware that I have feelings for him, but I told him they went away. We haven't talked about it recently, and here I am, telling myself this is impossible, impractical, a waste of time. Sometimes I contemplate whether I just want to disappear and stop talking to him because I can't climb out of this. Maybe if I told him, he would talk to me to help me realize that it's a lost cause, which would break me, but in a way maybe make my heart less heavy. But I am afraid to talk to him about it because I don't want him to withdraw himself to keep me safe - because I don't want to lose him either. I really just have no idea what to think, my head is spinning. I want to touch him. I miss him when I haven't talked to him for a few days. I miss him, and I never even had him. It is absurd. I have never known love to be this crazy. And this love hurts. Link to post Share on other sites
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