Is This the End?

[Kaiten]

Hello everyone. Been a while since I posted. I miss helping people out anonymously.

 

Now I need help.

 

So here I am. 22 years old. Not a thing to show for it. I guess it kind of hit me when my birthday last month came around. At this stage in my life, i am probably the loneliest I have ever been. Or at least I feel that way.

 

I have been into writing quite a bit. I am really serious about it, and I discipline myself to write even when I would rather be doing other things. But like I said, there is nothing to show for it. I really want to be an author. I wonder if that dream will actually come true now. Im really discouraged.

 

I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. A lot.

 

Another thing I want to do is travel. But the thing is I dont have anyone to share experiences with. No Friend, significant other, family, no one. Even if I could travel right now, I would have no one to talk to.

 

I don't really want a girlfriend, because I feel there is no point in me being with someone until I have become the person that I am striving to be.

 

I haven't done anything with my life, and I don't have the money for college. I plan to do all the research I can on how to turn this around. I am not sure if being an author is going to work out. Honestly, my lack of progress in my life is causing me to despise myself.

[It-is-what-it-is.]

Hi

 

First of all...you are soooo young. So much time ahead of you, so don't worry about what you haven't done yet.

 

There is plenty of money for school if you are interested. Student loans will cover, of course you have to pay back after you graduate. There are scholarships and work study so don't let money be the barrier.

 

It does sound like you need to get out and make some friends. Of course school makes that easier but if not school then look into volunteer work, sports, hobby clubs, meetups, church, gym, whatever is of interest to you.

 

You sound depressed. You might want to talk to your doctor.

[Kaiten]

Thanks! I appreciate your advice and taking the time to reply! it's all on me now!

[pcplod]

Hello everyone. Been a while since I posted. I miss helping people out anonymously.

 

Now I need help.

 

So here I am. 22 years old. Not a thing to show for it. I guess it kind of hit me when my birthday last month came around. At this stage in my life, i am probably the loneliest I have ever been. Or at least I feel that way.

 

I have been into writing quite a bit. I am really serious about it, and I discipline myself to write even when I would rather be doing other things. But like I said, there is nothing to show for it. I really want to be an author. I wonder if that dream will actually come true now. Im really discouraged.

 

I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. A lot.

 

Another thing I want to do is travel. But the thing is I dont have anyone to share experiences with. No Friend, significant other, family, no one. Even if I could travel right now, I would have no one to talk to.

 

I don't really want a girlfriend, because I feel there is no point in me being with someone until I have become the person that I am striving to be.

 

I haven't done anything with my life, and I don't have the money for college. I plan to do all the research I can on how to turn this around. I am not sure if being an author is going to work out. Honestly, my lack of progress in my life is causing me to despise myself.

 

Jim Morrison asked that very same question before he eventually topped himself. I suspect he may not have found his answer. Frankly, I find it too wearisome to even contemplate such a question, being the tired, weary old fart that I inescapably am. Sorry. "Despite" is an awfully heavy burden and probably totally unnecessary and pointless.