Which way do i go?

[Swansea]

My natural introverted-ness along with my inexperience and social anxiety make quite a pair.

 

It is my self awareness and attempts to try to look at things from different vantage points that keep me sane at times imo.

 

For as long as i remember if i find a "profile" of a girl whether it be around my peers or "whatever" that i think could be a realistic catch then i become "interested" but sometimes it goes to the point of letting my self go and thinking of ideas that could be deemed "adventurous" or "risky" to put it in a nice way.

 

For example...I was browsing through Facebook, looking for the facebook of a girl that i met and talked to several times in my high school senior year 2 years ago, she was nice, i found her, (didnt friend invite her) but in the "friends" column of hers to the right i saw a picture of a girl that i consider to be flaming hot, i clicked it and she suddenly became one of these (ideas) ^^^

 

She has 95 friends most of them which seem like the kind of friends you have but arent really anything more than aquaintances, and all over her pictures she reminds me of an introverted personality and all her comments are made only by girls, nerdy girls at that. Ideas like these entertain me even if they may be horribly misguided.

 

So here i have the crazy idea that maybe i could ask her out for a drink, explain the weird situation and hope for the best, and possibly expect the worst ( she has a friend who is the sister of a good friend of mine and overall this could go through waves of talk if she tells everyone some weirdo (me) invited her out) on top of that my anxiety has made it so i havent EVER really gone out on a date so telling my parents this could even be more weird.

 

All this fueled by curiosity, and cliche one liners such as "it wont kill you to try". (the idea being that if i try and get rejected ill be where i was) but apparently the idea of getting accepted into a date and also having more of a social life is scary to me.

 

Truth is that i am introverted, ideally i could become friends with a girl and maybe become more than that, but sometimes i get ideas like ^^^ and i just dont know what to make of them. If i lived by my self and there werent any people that i know too well, linked to this girl, id try it, be no more different than asking a girl out in a bar ( this is very arguable). But i feel a pressure, something i dont want to face...

Edited July 20, 2013 by Swansea