5 weeks on

[jerryh]

Well, its been 5 weeks today since i came to this site, my gf of 5 years, my first love dumped me because she didnt feel the love anymore, was worried over my ambition to find a job and drive became bored and wanted to be single. Recently she drunkenly called me ( not the first time since the breakup, didnt answer the two other nights) and i answered this time, she declared her love for me and that she never stopped loving me, expressed her delight at my new job and progress on driving, we were soul mates and how much she has missed me, her life was terrible without me and wanted to meet. She took it back the next day saying she only misses me as a friend and at first it devastated me but 3 days on and im getting over it. I feel the girl is very confused. Its been a tough 5 weeks, periods of me begging and kept texting to where she wouldnt eventually contact me back at the start, to moments of NC, which she would break with random stuff. I feel a much stronger person and although foolishy i still have hope of a reconcillation, im trying to be a better person. Thanks all here who listened and helped. i know I will eventually run into her some day and that will be the telling moment for both of us i assume.