Christ85 Posted October 26, 2004 Share Posted October 26, 2004 I'm sure you all remember me from the jail time situation a while back. javascript:emoticon('') Well...that guy didn't go to jail, his stepfather never found out. We're still broken up, but I still love him. We still talk on the phone.....the worst thing is that he believes that we will be together in the the end. I disagree. I disagree very much..... I found out that he lied to me. He told me in the beginning that he didn't do drugs or anything like that. Just recently, after we broke up, I found out that he'd been smoking pot ever since before we got together, but he didn't tell me. He says he didn't tell me b/c he knew that if I would've told him, we would've never gone out. The real reason we broke up is b/c of his habit. He wouldn't quit. I told him that we're probably not going to get back together, but IF we ever did, he would have to get rid of that once and for all. The thing that confuses me is that he says he loves me so much and he wants to be with me....but obviously he doesn't love me as much as he says b/c he won't quit. My question is do you think its wise for us to stay friends. I feel like we're good friends and it could help us to stay friends, but on the other hand, I'm with someone new now, and everytime my ex calls, he always talks about me coming back to him. Help? Link to post Share on other sites
SoleMate Posted October 29, 2004 Share Posted October 29, 2004 It must sting to know that Michael loved his reefer more than he loved you. If you value your new committed, exclusive (?) relationship, you must not be in contact with an ex who keeps trying to get back together with you. Don't they teach you that at Sunday school? Link to post Share on other sites
Author Christ85 Posted October 30, 2004 Author Share Posted October 30, 2004 Wow. So much had happened in such a short time. Yes, it did sting to know that Michael loved his reefer more than he loved me....But not anymore. Maybe I should back up and tell it from the beginning...... As you know, I am still in love with Michael. And my new relationship wasn't as committed as I thought, b/c we broke up. I really couldn't handle being in love with Michael and trying to be with someone else....It just wasn't working. So.....Michael and I started to "talk" again....as more than just friends. For some reason, he and I just can't stay away from each other. I've found out that he's been clean since we broke up.....and it wasn't just him that told me this.....I can see and hear the difference...plus, I talked to his mom about it. When I asked him why he quit (yes, I asked just b/c I wanted to know), I got this response: "I realized what I lost when I lost you, and that if I ever wanted a chance at getting you back I had to get rid of it and start showing you that I love you more than anything in this world." We had a long talk about us last Thursday. He has a dangerous job, and he went to work one day, and I realized that I could lose him at any time. So, I told him that he is everything to me. He's my world, my life, and if something happened to him, that I wouldn't know what to do. He asked me back out......but he didn't say, "Will you go back out with me?" He said "Can I come back now?" It was so sweet. So.....we're back together. I've never been happier in my entire life than I am right now. I have everything that I need. I feel like I'm sitting on top of the world. His job, like I said, is dangerous, put it pays a heck of a lot of money. He told me that he knows I don't like it, but he's doing it so that he can take care of me and our kids. I worry about him constantly when he works. But I believe that everything will be ok. Eventually he will quit this job and get a less dangerous one, but for now, its what he has to do. It has suprised me how he's changed. And now I know that he's changed because he's not drugged up all the time. He's sweeter, he spends more time with me. He cares what I think about things....He asks my opinion on situations and he asks me what I want to do when we go out. He's coming down either tomorrow or this Friday and we're going to see my mom, who's is the hospital, and then we're going to see a movie. Now that he's off the drugs, he's more respectful to my parents. I couldn't ask for more than what I have right now. Everyone of you who reads this will probably ask me why I'm back with him. As if it isn't obvious enough, I love him and I always will. Link to post Share on other sites
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