feeling lost

[Moniq]

You think your birthday is bad!! I hate to compare but I got married on my husbands birthday and my birthday was the very next day. May 14 and 15. Every year im going to get a reality check. I wish you a happy birthday and I hope you can try to enjoy yourself. I'm sorry for what you're going thru. Oh and as I read you're only 35 and I thought to myself that's still young enough to start a new life. As I am 31 and I feel old, I might have a chance at life again.

 

Good night

[2005tahoe]

ok, I have pretrial next week for some things. I dont really understand what its about, but whatever. I have been doing ok, it still hurts so much. Every morning I wake to think about her, at lunch when she used to text me and always looking for her car when I return home from work.

 

I did backslide a little bit and asked my lawyer to ask hers if we could try reconcling again, the last time I asked was about 2 months ago.

 

I have lost 52 pounds (down to 148) since she left and went from a size 36 slacks to a 30 and put on a little muscle from the gym. The last time she saw me I was overweight, I saw a coworker from a few years ago yesterday and he almost didnt reconize me, it made me feel a little better knowing that my results were being noticed.

 

I still dont want this and still dont agree with it but unfortunately I am along for the ride.

[vla1120]

You're better off without her, Tahoe. You may not think so right now, but you'll realize it one day. Weekends are hard for me, too. My STBXH and I are still cohabitating (I move out 10/9). He spends the weekends at his gf's house. I spend the weekend watching movies, doing yoga and exercising, and visiting friends. The weekends go slow for me. I agree with BK, file for divorce. Do you really want to reconcile with someone who treated you so horribly? You deserve better!!